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HI GUYS!!!! Oh my, it’s been a looooooong while. I actually went through my blog and re-read everything and I’ve noticed that I was always saying how “I don’t know what to and how to do blogging anymore” in most of my previous posts but I PROMISE THIS TIME, I LEGIT DON’T KNOW WHAT TO WRITE OR HOW DO I DO THIS ANYMORE because I haven’t done this for like forever. It felt like I’m starting again!!! Okay sige, I’m not gonna babble more. Let’s just hop right into my post.

Okay, so as what I’ve mentioned on my previous posts, I’ve entered Third Year or the Medtech proper last school year 2016-2017 and that’s (also) the reason why I was gone for a very long time. Idk, I just found myself being swallowed by acads and all that jazz that I never really had the time to write a single blogpost. There’s so much that has happened in my entire Third Year life and I wish I could’ve had written any of’em and immortalize the memories on this blog and hark back to those times… but sadly, I didn’t. Anyway, as you can probably tell on the title, this post would be a “rundown” of my experience as a Third Year Medical Technology student.

(Wait, how do I start?)

We started the school year earlier than the normal students in our university due to the reason that we were trying to chase the schedule for the 1-year internship so everything would fit and we would end just right on time for the graduation (yikes chills) because as you all know, we are one of those pabibo schools who embraced the academic calendar shift. So the clinical subjects I took this year are as follows:

1st Semester
MIC111 – Bacteriology
PAR100 – Clinical Parasitology
GPHC100 – General Pathology, Histopathology and Cytopathology
CC111 – Routine Clinical Chemistry
HEMA111 – Hematology 1
MTLBE100 – Medical Technology Laws and Bioethics
LMS100 – Laboratory Management and Supervision

2^nd Semester
MIC112 – Mycology and Virology
UBF100 – Urinalysis and Body Fluids (Clinical Microscopy)
HEMA112 – Hematology 2
SIM100 – Serology and Immunology
CC112 – Continuation of CC1/ Special Chemistry
CC113 – Endocrinology, Toxicology and Drug Testing
IMH100 – Immunohematology (Blood Banking and Transfusion Medicine)

I can’t believe I already passed all these subjects let alone the first sem subjects!!!! Personally, I think First semester is harder than the Second Semester idk maybe because it’s the time when we were just and still adapting to the new and toxic environment of Third Year life and the transition is quite overwhelming. Also, the passing rate was raised from 60% in Second Year to 70% in Third Year. I CAN’T EVEN!!! Plus the laboratory practical exams had an upgrade to like 5x that of the Second Year pracs. There’s legit a time when I went back to my dorm during lunch break just to cry because of a practical exam and a fair share of tears were shed at nights when I have no idea how to fit and finish everything before the sunrise. Also there’s a day when, for the first time in my life, I called my mom after I got back in my dorm from school and cried for my dear life because EVERYTHING WAS SO HARD.

It’s also during First Semester when I learned how essential it is to know the time difference from night (let’s say 7pm) to 5am the next day and how to utilize it very well because your life literally depends on how you manage and distribute it to sleeping and studying because you know, you’ll only have to read 1-3 chapters per subject and you only have like 3 quizzes the next day for the lecture and probably a practical exam or a long quiz for the laboratory in the afternoon. JUST HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO PREPARE FOR THAT IN LESS THAN 10HRS???— is all I was thinking then. That’s how resentful and pitiful I was back then.

We were taught the laboratory skills we need— Venipuncture (of course! the freaking highlight and a must), Blood Smearing, Staining, Pipetting!! Oh God forbid, I loathe glass pipetting so much! Direct Fecal Smear… and all medtech-y skills. I love Bacteriology so much. It was the subject I got the highest grade during First Semester. The lecture and laboratory were both the bomb.com. But ofc, I wouldn’t forget the anxiety the Unknown has given us. For our finals in the lab, we were given unknown organisms and we were to identify it via Biochemical Testing and everything we were taught of on how to identify such. It took me so long to decide what my organism was because some of the biochemical test results weren’t at par with theoretical information so imagine my anguish. Our grades basically depended on it so… yeah.

but in the end, I decided it was Enterobacter cloacae.

Another memory from First Semester is the time when we were to submit Enterobius swabs as additional points for our Parasitology laboratory. I took my bestfriend with me to hunt down possible patients. It was such a memorable experience, I have no more words. I poured all the feels on this Facebook post.

Also, I’ll never forget about First Semester is the day when we had our Grand Practical Exam in our laboratory subjects and it was the time when 3^rd Floor HSC was in a total dishevelment. We were taking turns and rotating in different labs to have our moving practical exams simultaneously— one section is having their Histopath moving pracs, the other is having their Bacte moving pracs, then another section is on the roil in Hematology moving pracs while the other one is having their Parasitology Moving Pracs and the like. That was the most intense day ever imaginable.

Also on that day, was the first time I was able to extract blood on a practical exam!!! I can never forget how stupid I may have looked for shouting “Hala may dugo” when blood oozed out from my partner’s vein. I was never able to bleed my partner in almost all the practicals we had due to my infamous phobia with needles and I was legit surprised and awed when a blood came out that day!!!

For the events of Second Semester… I’m not really sure?? lol even though it’s the more recent semester, I can’t remember much from it coz it went like a blur to me. It was so fast it was so unreal that it actually happened!!! (and that I passed!)

Okay. One thing I could say about Second Semester is that I fancy UBF hahahaha I’m not sure if it’s the subject itself or teacher factor hahahaha but to be honest, it was so fun to study and probably the easiest of the panel of subjects for second semester (or so I thought).

The laboratory learning and insights this semester gave me more of the medtech feels because most of the experiments/tests we did in the lab were the ones that are being performed in the actual laboratory setting. I will never forget the struggle of dilution in Serology lab. We aren’t allowed to use calculators during the entire semester and of course as someone who absolutely hates math and computation, that’s. the. worst. nightmare. ever. So given that situation, imagine our surprise during the Final Laboratory Written examination when our instructor finally allowed us to use calculator. Everybody in the class was in awe because that’s super unexpected. We didn’t have much of moving practical exams this sem compared to the numerous ones we had on first semester. The practical exams this time were more like skills-based and principle application. Slide identification-kind-of-moving practicals was surprisingly nakakamiss.

Self-pity time: Two semester have passed and no one was able to extract blood from me huhuhu do I even have veins??? :——(

Just to give you some insight, there are:

4 major examinations in each lecture subjects
2 major written examination in each laboratory subjects
(100-item identification)
Moving Practical Exam in each laboratory subjects
Skills/Application Practical Exam in each laboratory subjects
Pre and post quizzes in every meeting in each lecture subjects
Pre and post quizzes in every laboratory experiments
Long Quizzes every after chapter
Long Quizzes before major examination in each lecture subject
Long Quizzes before major examination in each laboratory subjects
Surprise quizzes whenever the professor would like
Not to mention the drawings of each specimen in laboratory manuals in each laboratory subject
2 Journal readings in each lecture subject

So ayun, hindi po kami OA and nag-iinarte. Our lives literally revolve in exams and quizzes.

Moving on, last May 09, we had our Pre-Internship Program which is a prerequisite before you can proceed to the actual internship. On that exact day,we took a 700-item Diagnostic Examination without any notice and I literally just came back from an 8-hour trip because I went home in Bicol so I was sitting for like 14 hours straight!!! We had series of practical examinations for two weeks, a Phlebotomy seminar with BD Philippines, a tour in a National Reference Laboratory which is the National Kidney Institute and an Oral Revalida.

CAUTION: Photospam ahead.

I’m not sure if this is enough to summarize everything because I can feel that it’s not even in the slightest bit justified on this post. Maybe it’s one of the wonders of life that cannot be really put into words. (But you tried, self what are you doing hahaha)

Suffice to say that all these experiences; the nerve-racking and heartbreaking quizzes, no-sleep days, tears, sweats, blood (hahahaha legit), cramming moments and all other hardships are the variables which played significant roles in this endeavour which lead me to where I am heading right now. I’m so happy and proud to share to you guys the next step I’m taking in this career path. I am now officially a Medical Technology Intern at St. Luke’s Medical Center – Quezon City under the Institute of Pathology. I know, I can’t believe it myself that I was able to pass through the needle-hole like hurdle you call “Third Year life”. SLMC is actually my first-in since we are to undergo 1-year internship and we will be having our second-in next semester in another hospital.

I will be forever thankful to Trinity University of Asia especially to Dean Rodriguez for always making sure that the quality of education/ training is there. Thank you for a super hands-on laboratory experience and our very own DIagnostic Laboratory in the 4th Floor. It’s like a simulation of the environment that we will be facing in the near future. Would also like to thank our Clinical Instructors:

Mam Majo Liao
Sir Jude Anthony Trinidad
Dra. Mary Anne Isip
Sir Mark Francisco
Sir Mel Destacamento
Mam Gigi Dayrit
Mam Violie Bascao
Mam Suzzette Lumanga
Mam Rona Gonzaga
Sir Joshua Descamparado
Sir Nikko Onate
Mam Krystal Tio

for gearing us up with all the lectures, wisdom and skills that we would need to be the Medical Technologists that we are aiming to be.

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Other significant life events during the course of Third Year life:

I became an Altar Server at the Shrine of Jesus the Divine Word. Hashtag dream come true.

I was elected Medical Technology Councilor in the University Student Council. Hashtag unreal.

All glory and praise to the Lord God above. Thank you for guiding me in almost everything I do. Thank you also St. Jude Thaddeus for interceding for me. Forever grateful and blessed.

That’s pretty much how I can sum up my Third Year life. I hope you enjoy reading as much as I enjoyed writing it! Thank you so much for reading yet another long blog post of mine. See you on my next post (hopefully there’s a next)!!!

May 26, 2017| 37 Notes

Hi guys! It’s been really long since I last talked to you. I think I aged just by calculating how long I have been MIA. To top it all, I absolutely honestly seriously don’t know how to do this anymore. I’ve also noticed that I lost some of you already and that’s sad. Anyways, I’m here to give you guys a short (?) update on my life lately and all that jazz.

As you can tell, I’m done with Second Year. The second semester was really— idk how to describe it but it really made me a fumbling mess. My subjects were slightly clinical and gosh, Basic Histology made me nuts. IT WAS SO HARD like I even had 4 as a midterm grade. GUYS THAT’S BELOW 75 WHAT THE HELL!?! Plus I have Biochemistry and Physics. These three subjects literally made me pray for my life. When it was the release of grades, I was really anxious because I feel like me and my grades were on a cliff because THEY WERE SO HARD I’M CRYING!!! I’m not kidding. I think my mother and I bet my friends were annoyed with my continuous blabs about me not passing the damned subjects. I also had Cytogenetics, Basic Pharmacology and Community Public Health. I only had Oral Communication and PE104 as minor subjects. (Well technically, Histo, Pharma and Cyto were also minor subjects in terms of units but THEY. ARE. NOT.)

BUT BY GOD’S WILL, I PASSED EVERY SUBJECT. Seriously, when I went to view my grades, my eyes went straight on searching for 5 and when I see none, I then searched for 3 BUT AGAIN I SEE NONE!!! I WAS LITERALLY AWED BECAUSE I WAS WHOLEHEARTEDLY ONLY ASKING FOR TRES BUT I GOT MORE. I honestly can’t believe how I was able to get those grades like seriously I thought I’d fail these three subjects. Up until now, I still can’t believe I passed Physics and Histology per se.

Then last June 13, I had my summer slash midyear classes. As you guys all know, I didn’t enrol last summer because my father was home so it is only this year that I got to enrol myself in the required summer subjects. I took Sociology and Philosophy of Man. It was really overwhelming because these two subjects are the remaining minor subjects I had and I was like savouring everyday thinking it would be the last aka the calm before the storm. The midyear classes ended last July 19 and I actually went home in Bicol but I went back here again in QC last July 26 because I had to take our Battery Exam. Then, last July 28, we had our Laboratory Exam. Is it bad that I felt so relieved because Sir Anthony wasn’t the one who did Phlebotomy at me? Idk but there are students who keep on saying their arm hurt so badly and a whole bunch of violent reactions. It scared me because as you guys know (~~or not~~), I am scared of needles like I always pass out whenever I get in touch with it. Lol I know it’s weird for a Medical Technology student but when I donated blood, that’s only when I knew that a phobia certainly exists because the people from Philippine Red Cross told me so after having to pass out twice after I donated blood. I also had a few experiences years ago and I thought it was only because of lack of sleep and hunger. Anyways, I brought a juice during the lab exam (as per advice of the Red Cross people back when I had my “passing out” sesh during the blood donation). I was drinking it before, during and after I had to sit for the blood extraction. It was cool because it actually worked. I didn’t feel nauseous at all.

Sooooo guys, in just few days, I’M FINALLY A THIRD YEAR STUDENT. As you guys know, I am supposedly graduating this school year if it wasn’t because of me transferring schools. Anyway, I have yet to take my Medical Examination on August 1 and the Values Seminar Workshop. I’m actually stoked and nervous at the same time because it’s already the MedTech proper and there’s no “minor subject” anymore. The price of the textbooks makes me cringe because they were all so pricey and I feel really guilty because I am going to eat a lot of my parents’ money this school year.

On a lighter note, I moved in to another dorm last April because I got fed up with my old dorm. It was so noisy in there that I had to wait for mid-night before I study because that’s only the time when everyone shuts up and it’s really discommoding for me because there’s a lot of time that’s being wasted. I also chose this dorm because it’s more quiet and serene and it’s a lot more spacious than my old room that I was able to create a little study nook. Plus there’s no Wi-Fi. I specifically like it because I chose to avoid myself from distractions because you know, when there’s internet, there’s YouTube and when’re there’s YouTube then there’s no sleep lol hash tag obsessed. I also wanted to tell you my developing obsession with medical dramas. I am so in love with House MD. I am already on the third season and it was so lit! Gregory House is a total goals. It was suggested by our Anatomy and Physiology prof during first semester and she told us she used to watch it while reviewing for the Physician Licensure Examination way back on her time. Also, Dra. Polido, my Cytogenetics professor last semester, kept on mentioning House during class discussions and imagine my delight. I was so giddy when I continued watching it after the second semester because EVERYTHING MAKES PERFECT SENSE. Thanks to histology, cytogen and pharma I can understand them… medically lol. I’m also watching I Heart You Doc and Doctors. Yep, both are Korean Dramas and they were sooooo good!!! I’d like to give special emphasis on Doctors. Yay, Park Shin Hye is bae. But I Heart You, on the other hand was underrated but it was actually very comprehensive like for me it’s a Korean version of House MD.

I also had my hair cut… yep not a trim but a cut after several years. As you guys know, I haven’t had a proper haircut since I graduated high school and that was on 2013. I decided to cut half of its total length and so far, I like it. It’s not short but is long enough for me to have it up in a ponytail. Did I already tell you that our department has implemented a rule that the girls are required to always have our hair in ponytail?

Also, I think I might be joining the #studyblr. I’ve been following this community since 2013 and it really looks promising. I’ve thought about this for a long time already and I haven’t tried because I have no courage. I’ve been making my notes in a #studyblr way for a long time and I think there’s no harm in finally engaging in it. My soon-to-be-posts are not the best one could see over the internet but hey, what’s there to lose if I try? lol I also wanted to try sharing my study habits in hopes of helping other students.

That’s pretty much it! I hope you guys enjoy reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it. Oh, the photo above is my little study nook here in my dorm and I thought I’d share it to you guys. Hope you are all doing great at school as well as in your lives. See you on my next post, bye!

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July 31, 2016| 9 Notes

HELLO?

No, it’s not Adele. It’s me, Danah. The girl who’s so fond of writing lengthy but worthless life posts on the internet. Yep, me and I am back! Gosh, it’s been what? ALMOST FOUR STRAIGHT MONTHS OF BEING MIA? I CAN’T EVEN!!! I’d like to say sorry though because I became inactive without giving any notice and whatnot. I just went missing for months! I don’t even know if there’s still anyone reading this blog and anyone who still cares? Nonetheless, I AM BACK!

The reason behind my (sudden) evanescence is none other than acads. It’s been a tough semester for me, I’m not even kidding! Like what I’ve been always telling you guys before, I acquired the load and courses/subjects of a regular second year Medical Technology student and boy did I forget what is life. I had classes from Monday until Saturday and I wasn’t really prepared for that coz you know, I only had MTTHF sched for the previous semesters. The schedule tired me so much that I barely have time for myself; to rest and live normally. Sundays weren’t rest day at all because I had to utilize that day to do all the requirements for the upcoming week. Some of you might say I’m overreacting… that not only medtech students experience six-day classes. It’s true and I acknowledge that but I’m sorry, you just don’t understand. All those pre and post tests… two laboratory subjects twice a week… one body system per week… polsci recitations almost every meeting… H O W??? So, I was basically occupied. I thought I could make it… that I could still lend Tumblr some of my time but the plan worked in vain. I wasn’t able to find time to update and write posts. I barely used my laptop the entire sem, tbh. Whenever there’s paperworks did I only get this piece of technology out of my closet. Anyway, it’s already done and it’s sembreak already so let’s just move-on and forget all the heartaches because again, I am baaaaack!

Yes, you heard it right. We’re on our sembreak + Christmas break and our classes will resume on January 18th. It all went smooth though; no abrupt changes and all that jazz like last year’s academic calendar which caused some drama. I went home here in my hometown in Bicol and I’m almost a week here now. Like the boring little earthling that I am, nothing interesting ’s happening in my life at the moment (Oh, I forgot! I got to reunite with my bff last December 09) so I don’t know what to say anymore. Uhmmm, I’m actually very confused now as to what this blogpost will be all about.

Well, to add some sense in this blog post, here’s a wrap-up of my entire semester.

Warning: May contain lengthy whines and uhm–lengthy posts in general.

1. I’ve got 10 subjects (2 laboratory subjects) in total which sums to 27 units this semester.

Principles and Strategies of Teaching Health Education - I hate this subject so much. It’s so demanding but it’s only a minor subject! Personally, I think this subject is not even needed in this degree. I mean, we can all be great Medical Technologists without memorizing all the Theories of Teaching, Malcolm Knowles Theory of Adult Learning and the Bloom Taxonomy of Learning, can’t we? I think it’s better to have Technical Writing as a minor subject rather than having this. If some Medical Technologists ever want to be in the academe, they can just take methods, etc. Do not put the burden in the mass! Another thing I hate is our professor. She’s so—ugh! Sigurado na nya agad na may babagsak sa subject niya. Talo niya pa yung major subjects! She didn’t even teach a thing or two. Moving on, I’m actually kind of regretting because I underestimated this course and I didn’t give my best. Hell, I never did study for PSTHE. Not even once… well, except for my report. I’m not expecting a high grade in this subject but I hope it isn’t that bad.
Organic Chemistry - It wasn’t that that hard for me since I have a pretty strong Basic Chemistry foundation when I was in highschool. (Shoutout to Sir Syrom Miranda for our Intro to Chemistry and Sir Ian Olila for Advanced Chemistry) Don’t take me as a pro because seriously, I am not. I find the major examinations hard. I am very fond of our professor, Dr. Mina. Although it’s quite a nah since she’s the Dean of the College of Arts & Sciences which is the largest college in the entire university which in result, her busy schedule aka #deanlife kinda messes up with our classes, still I learned tons from her. I like her presence so much. She’s very intimidating, very professional-looking and you’re like going to voluntarily offer her respect but to be honest, she gives the crankiest jokes in town. I love everything we discussed about the Aromatic Compounds. For the laboratory, my favorite experiments were Boiling Point Determination, Aldehydes & Ketones and Urine Analysis. Another thing I love about this subject is that it gave me the power to recognize and appreciate things that common people can’t. I’m not expecting anything with this subject anymore. I gave up the Dean’s Lister dream because of my previous 84 chemistry grades.
PE103 Swimming - Cool. The water was cool. Kidding aside! This helped a lot. I am no longer afraid of the pool. I swear, I am a hundred percent confident I am not gonna be like a snail stuck at the side of the pool on our next picnic/ outing anymore. I’m a bit disappointed because we had a conflict with the schedule. We share the same sched with another section from AS and we can’t fit in the pool area so we had to make an every other week scheme. As a result, we only learned few things like the freestyle, floating and backstroke. I was expecting to learn the butterfly and dive though.
Introduction to Medical Transcription - One thing this subject taught me is that the foot pedals found in the computer laboratory of TUA are for Medical Technology students. I’ve been wondering what was the thing under the computer table during the course of my Basic Statistics laboratory class and voila, I got answers. Sadly, we weren’t able to use it. Thanks to non-medtech students for ruining it! Plus they’re already old daw. This subject was fun. We were tasked to fill-out/ answer FIB exercises. I would never forget FIB 6 though! I wasn’t able to fill-out most of its blanks because the dictator was so fast! For our Final exam, we were charged to finally transcribe what was being dictated to us. One specific direction that was told is to write the letter in block format. Most of my classmates didn’t know how the hell a block format should be done. I told you, we need Technical Writing more than PSTHE.
Life and Works of Rizal - Most of you know full-well how much I adore History so I think you know which was my favorite. The approach we used was critical and I like how we undressed Rizal. I like how I was given an eyesight to yet another side of Philippine History. Okay, I think I should stop like right here because my history-buff self is starting to open its mouth and we won’t want this post to be filled with history. I am honestly very nervous about my final grade. My final paper didn’t go very well. I only got 1.25 and I’m praying that it won’t affect my grade.
Health Economics - Not bad. The only downside of this were the surprise quizzes. You’d totes be surprised. We also had lots of no classes because of holidays and certain circumstances. I like Sir Raranggol. He’s so jolly, kind and very approachable.
Human Anatomy & Physiology - Well, shit. I swear, the 07:30 am WS schedule ruined it! Okay, I completely lost it here. I don’t know what to write anymore. This is a major shock to me. I wasn’t actually failing but I know, if this subject was assigned in a much conducive time/ schedule, I can do better than what I did. Our laboratory was a total nah and I think the almost 5k? laboratory fee should have a refund. Also, several holidays hit our schedule for this subject so the discrepancies of the quality education is visible in the naked eye. Anyhoo, I’m actually very thankful to God because I passed all three major exams here and I was given the pleasure to be a part of the Top 10 and Top 5 during exams. I hope I’ll pass the Finals tho.
Political Science - Okay I lied a little. Rizal wasn’t my favorite. I believe it’s polsci that I am eyeing as my favorite subject this semester. BEST PROF EVER! Sir Bon knows how to catch you and drag you into listening. Plus, this subject ignites my inner lawyer-wannabe self at some point. I learned a lot. I like how Sir Bon only taught us things we needed in life. Ugh, he is basically a life peg and he’s an epitome of success. On a lighter note, one thing I hate is the memorizing. I suck at memorization. I lost it at the Bill of Rights. To end this cluster, here’s me and Sir Bon.

2. Soooo I kinda had a new crush and newsflash he’s a guy. He’s quite a chemlord and goddamnit, some of his characteristics resembles that of Harry’s. He ’s got those smoldering eyes and dimples and oh my gosh I swear I’d go straight for him. One time during our Organic Chemistry class, we had a boys vs. girls games and he was the one to represent the boys for that number/ level. Ayra literally pushed me to stand and be his opponent. I don’t know how I agreed but I just found myself standing in front. I was SO NERVOUS that I forgot to do what I am doing. The question was so easy if I am on my right state of mind I mean who can’t answer the IUPAC name of Vinyl Chloride anyways??? I was able to write the structure but my mind seem to shut down right on cue. I’ll bring the shame of not being able to name Chloro Ethane to my grave. Anyhoo, I hope this “crush” would fade away soon because he’s younger and I don’t want to give him the yucky feeling of having an older admirer?

3. We had our Mid-Year CMT Symposium few weeks back and the Guest Speaker was an alumnus of our university and he’s the Chairman of American Society of Clinical Pathologists. He introduced us stuff and as soon as I went home, I grab the chance to open new doors for opportunities. I am now an ASCP International Lab Student Member and I’m really honored to be a part of their dynamic team. I’m really looking forward to this endeavor not only for the goodness of myself but to be in service and goodness of the greater mass.

4. I made friends! It still shocks me up until this point that I managed to build friendships for a couple of months. I can’t remember when, why and how… we just clicked? I remember being anxious about being in a block section but they all seemed to thaw those anxieties away. I’d like to take this moment to thank all these amazing people who made this semester wonderful. It wouldn’t be as jovial as what it is if it wasn’t because of you all.

Ate Maricor, thank you for being the best ate! I’ll miss all the selfie moments, your cuteness and everything— not to mention your house lol we may not be blockmates, seatmates or department-mates anymore but you will always be our ate. Hope to see you around the university!

Irish, thank you for being my buddy in E.Rod. I’ll miss walking you up to your dorm every afternoon and eating in KFC with you. I hope we can still do the same old rituals next sem even if we’re no longer blockmates.

Ayra, what do you mean? Haha just kidding! Thank you. You were the first person I bumped with this semester. Who would’ve thought we would be friends like what do you mean? hahahaha thank you for your undying sweetness.

Ana, aaahhh best seatmate ever! I’ll miss all the 1D (but mostly Harry), Troye Sivan and everything fangirling talks we do. It’s so nice to finally meet someone who’s got the same addiction—interest as mine. I was truly amazed how you still managed to stick with me and not judge me despite my sexuality loool I hope we could get past Sir Mark and be blockmates next sem!

Apple, we don’t have pictures together :–( Anyway, thank you for initiating a conversation with me during our anatomy first day. Thank you for always being so nice and for extending your hands to those who are in need especially in the laboratory manual. Thanks for all the trivia and practical exam tips you always give. See you around and please lessen your caffeine intake?

Mitzi, thanks for being my buddy in PE. I knew we would be friends the minute you walked in on our first day. Come to think of it, it’s like destiny pulled us together. You were friends with Ayra and I am too before we even know it. Thanks for all the jokes you brought all the way from Taguig to E.Rod. Keep dreamin and barkin!

Hannah, ice ice baby. Thank you for being one of my friends and my best friend in Snapchat, if that makes sense. Let me tell you how much I appreciate every load you wasted from texting me without even knowing I am using Smart whilst you are a Globe user. That’s… wow fantastic baby.

Ate Sarah, we haven’t done crazy things together except Irish’s surprise birthday so I don’t have much to say yet. Hugot Haven wouldn’t be complete without you. Thank you for accepting me— us despite our crankiness.

I was so used with being alone but I’ve grown quite dependent with your company guys in a matter of four months. I’m afraid I wouldn’t be able to stand alone if you’re not all by my side next sem. But hehe just kidding. I’m a very independent woman, right right. I can do this… or not. *cries because our memories together will haunt me*

That’s it! It has been a wonderful semester and I’m really looking forward to whatever I’m to conquer next semester. The release of grades will be tomorrow, December 14 and I’m really anxious about my grades. I hope I won’t have a failing grade and I hope I’ll pass all subjects.

In case you’re wondering, that’s my laptop up there and no, it’s not some sort of a case. It’s just decals/ stickers I found at NBS. I have an all black laptop so it was really complementary. I actually had it last year and the sticker already turned one.

Thank you so much for reading. Advanced Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! ❤

December 13, 2015| 13 Notes

15 days more and I’m leaving again. Honestly though, it doesn’t feel like three months at all. Gosh, I didn’t do anything sensible! All I did was sleep, read and eat … that surely didn’t make me a better earthling. I’m so disappointed because everything didn’t go according to what I thought things would turn. I can’t believe I let three months slip that easily. I thought I’d be able to divide my summer vacation/ time properly — equally distributed to advanced reading, losing pounds, thinning my huge TBR pile, fangirling, blogging and my responsibilities in this house. Well, as it seems, I only succeeded in the fangirling area … completely ignoring other agenda. Oh the things reading Harry Styles fanfictions can do lol.

I’m still not over with the fact that I didn’t get to Dean’s List. I’m almost there though. Just one point away. Thanks to Chemistry, I failed. My mom told me not to get too upset about my 2.25 because it’s not a failing grade but I can’t. For me, it’s as if my 84 is a freaking singko. Oh good heavens. Why can’t I be as intelligent as my mom? :(
Well, I actually got to do something productive after all. I LEARNED HOW TO COOK!!! Well for starters, to fry. My first experience was to fry fries. It’s cool though. Very very cool. That was my first time to be in the kitchen… not waiting for the time the food will be done but to cook. To be completely honest with you guys, I do not know how to cook rice… not until this vacation. It’s disgusting because I only knew how to cook edible rice at the age 19. I am happy as well because I finally did it. After learning how to fry, I found myself enjoying it like you can’t see me not frying at least twice a week. I always volunteer to do the frying because it makes me feel like a master chef. At least, that’s what I thought.
Did I already mention that I painted my room pink? Well it looks dashing. I still have my white walls tho. I only painted the bed frame, the closet and my study. Unlike before, it looks like the room has a life. I also made a little fandom wall right under my overhead bookshelf. I hope to Harry Styles, my niece wont lay a single finger on it when I leave for school.
I always thought it’s necessary to at least have a minimum of 5 people with you when going to a carnival to assure fun but I proved myself wrong. I went there with Marichris and Karl (plus Fermo) and we freaking squealed our lungs out out of fun. Then, I went there with my bestfriend Jaymar. I thought it would be boring considering our number but being the amazing us, we found fun in a hopeless place (whuut). Dude, that Ferris Wheel and Viking rides took my soul and made me realize that the Physics lessons I had back then were all real. Indeed, quality over quantity.
To my dismay, I haven’t even made it to the half of my TBR pile. Spent most of my time reading Harry fanfictions. I think I finished 30 fics already. Insane but huh, can’t help it :(
Clearly, I am not very updated with trends or new stuff so when my bestfriend mentioned something about a song Flashlight, I do not have a single idea about what the fuck he’s saying. Days after that, I decided to search for it. So I did and I listened to it. That’s when I realized my friend here, got some good jams. Damn did it sound so good! It feels like it was written for me. Whenever I listen to it, it’s like I’m brought to my dark days again. I can’t believe it’s been ages since I’ve been in it. As I hark back, I realize that I’m almost three years clean and that’s just, wow! Every word struck me right in the feels. Only that, I do not know who was my flashlight back then who lit my world to see the sweet life. Anyway, this song’s perfect. Really. Thanks for introducing this to me, sizzums!
So we went to Kuya Harold’s Recognition last week and that was one happy moment. I was able to watch a Civic Military Parade again, or at least something like that. I dunno how’s it called during that sort of ceremony though. I’m so happy for him because he finally reached his dreams. Honestly, I’m not really included in the plan. My father just asked me half-joking if I wanted to come, an hour before we left. I don’t have anything to do and I really want to be there at one of my cousin’s milestones so I said yes. Besides, it’s been ages since I went to Legazpi. It’s time to pay some visit tho. Like what I said, I wasn’t part of the plan. I hope me wearing a jersey at a formal ceremony is enough to explain my case of being ‘ just an excess baggage’. (And nope, that’s not mom and dad)
Last July 12, my niece celebrated her 3rd birthday. Since she didn’t have a nice celebration last year because me and mom left Bicol because around that time was the start of my classes so I made sure this year, she’ll have a good one. I took care of the cake and the balloons. Yes, I know. I’m such an amazing aunt. I love her so much and I’m bound to spoil her until she grow up.
“Wag magsalita ng tapos”. Indeed, man, indeed. As what I’ve said few months back, I am limiting myself into liking no one from the band but Harry Styles. Only him — said that I have no plans on worshipping the entire band but lookie here … looks like the 1D fandom got another addition. But to make myself clear, I am nowhere as near as you, old 1D fans and I am not really claiming that/ like I know the lads like the back of my hands or like how you guys do. But I can catch up pretty well *grins like a Cheshire cat*. My family’s again, surprised because I introduced another boyfriend of mine to them. They all took it nicely and they were quite supportive. Knowing that their daughter fancies the world’s largest boyband, they seemed anxious and baffled with the expenses I am bound to have in the name of my love for Harry and the lads. They’re not very supportive with this matter, saying it’s a waste of money and all that jazz. I actually told them it’s about time to start saving up for their next concert here because the price ranges up and maybe over 20k and my mom sure gave a fit. I told her to calm down because that’ll surely happen years from now and no one’s stopping me this time.
Anyway, I actually enjoy doing the dishes now because of them. I tend to shut the world down by listening to three of their albums (Four, Take Me Home and Midnight Memories) whilst doing the godforsaken chore. They really have a nice music and I found my jam. Seriously though, if I was a fan during/since high school, as SGO President, there’s no way anyone can stop me from blasting every school occassion with 1D songs.
Recently, I’ve been telling my mom my interest about the exchange program thing and surprise, surprise! she hasn’t said anything that will oppose the whole idea… yet. I’ve been babbling about UCLA a lot and idk why. Yale and Brown Universities are my dream schools abroad so I don’t know why UCLA suddenly surfaced. Lol as if my brain can actually afford Ivy League hahahaha

While in the midst of my vacation, I started feeling the usual annoyance I felt when I was in highschool. You know, I was never a good and diligent daughter so I hate it whenever my mom calls for my precious name to do house chores. But instead of flipping (like I normally do), I savoured it. Because I know, I’ll miss it when I leave for school. Too much drama hahaha

I’m really nervous for school tho. I acquired a schedule of a regular student this semester and I really hate it. I hate it so much! If only there’s a possibility that I’d be an irreg forever, my sched wouldn’t be as shit as what I have right now.

I am so stoked for school but I don’t wanna leave my home… my family. ~~Even my bed here~~. It’s like I’m restarting again … like it’s my first time to leave for school. My father will leave as well on August 1^st. Sad but true, his vacation is shorter than me and that we need to wait for one year and a half to see him again.

That’s it, that’s it! I hope you guys are doing great and actually being so productive unlike me who’s been mopping over Harry Styles for three months now. xx

July 17, 2015| 17 Notes

“Ang saklap siguro nun noh, na sa loob ng apat na taon mo sa college, wala ka man lang nabuong circle of friends”

“Mag-isa kang pupunta sa canteen, sa mga activity …”

“Ang saklap siguro maging loner … gaya niya”

These were the exact words I heard being discussed literally behind my back by some school mean girls wannabe who possess nothing but fake blondes and empty brains … girls who happened to be my former General Psychology classmates.

The moment they said those words, I was completely taken aback because it struck me right in the feels. I was offended. I was hurt. Don’t get me wrong, I am completely aware that I am a loner and I’m telling you, I’m a loner by choice but it hurts when people think that just because you’re alone, it’s as if you’re living your life in hell. It hurts when some people look at someone’s aloneness as a deficiency. I know for sure, it was me whom they were talking about because I’m the only loner in the line that time. I proved I was the hot issue when I was walking along the patio and one girl from that circle of friends called her friend then pointed at me and laughed as if I didn’t see them with my peripheral vision.

I, myself believe in the principle of not letting other people’s words come into your mind and ruin you. But everything has limits … including our feelings. No matter how tough you are, there will always be a part somewhere in your anatomy where your weakest point lies – where you are mostly vulnerable at that once jabbed and broken, you can’t control the outburst. And that’s when my numbness meter exceeded its limit; their words have filled my mind and I felt smaller, I felt insecure, I felt lonely and it feels like I was betrayed by my own life principle and became anxious if I am living my life incorrectly – that I was rather really a loser, like the way they look at me.

Just as when you thought you’re already sinking in the deepest of the Marianas Trench, a rescue team’s apparently up aboard ready to save you from drowning. In this case, these people are my rescue team.

Pau, Sonjul and Busra - Despite our differences, they still managed to put up with me and my grade-conscious-self. They treated me like I’m also a human – their never ending how are you? everytime we see each others around the campus, even it’s just a normal greeting, gave such huge warming in my heart. I don’t like attention but acknowledgement like this really makes me happy. Our group wouldn’t receive the Best in Baby Thesis Manuscript award if we weren’t us as a group. Although they didn’t do much in the writing, their support was like the ink of my pen. It was a section/block with some of the country’s showbiz personalities and models, for some wallflower like me, I would’ve melted for feeling small but Pau, Sonjul and Busra made me feel like I am not alone … that there’s no need to feel little because in reality, I’m far from that.
D – her real name is Danika but she introduced herself as D so bring it on! As an irregular student, I didn’t bother talking to other students because I just love being alone but she kept on talking to me and sooner, the walls I built was broken. She’s also a transferee so we both share the same feels … maybe that’s the reason why we clicked. In a classroom full of medtech students who seems “unreachable”, like what we both feel to our classmates … she also managed to make me feel like I am not alone. That we are both enclosed in the walls I supposed to build everytime. I wouldn’t forget the day when it was my report and she’s cheering me like she’s my bestfriend. I ‘awwwd’ a million of times because that was so touching and not a normal thing to happen to me.
Aileen, CJ, Ai and Maki – and these were the most awesome peeps I’ve ever met in TUA. Their personality were so genuine especially Aileen (or maybe because her name’s like my bestfriend’s? lol) but really, she’s the nicest. They were educ students and like what I told you guys before, I was enrolled in 1ED01 for three subjects so yeah. Never did I think of having friends in this block because first, I’m an irreg from the main campus and second, I’m not friendly. With them, I am slightly ME … I laugh hard, talk slightly too much and crack pranks and jokes with them which I don’t do in the other sections I’m enrolled to. Maki hugged me for a couple of times and although I feel awkward being hugged, it’s overwhelming because that’s a first. Seriously though, if I were to choose a set of classmates, I, without second thoughts, will choose them.

They are not my circle of friends but I want to thank them because somehow, they let me feel the joy of having someone’s company. They made me feel like once in my life, I wasn’t a loner … that I am capable of building connections with other people. They made me feel like I was really a “someone” not “something” which they can just use for personal intentions. My life lives an irony. I love being alone but I don’t want to feel alone.

Yes, I’m a loner and guess what, I’m proud of it. I don’t have a circle of friends and guess what, I’m proud of it. I’m proud because I stood on my own pair of feet. I’m proud because I finished this semester with nice grades all by myself. I’m proud because I didn’t have friends to ask for the answers in the homework. I’m proud because I didn’t have cheatbuddies. I’m so proud because I deserve the grades I received because it’s all me, myself and I who worked for it.

May 19, 2015| 8 Notes

RANDOM PHOTODUMP + LIFE UPDATE

Hello sunshines! I’d really want to say sorry for not updating as frequent as what I promised. I am so sorry, really. You know, I didn’t only break my promise to you guys but to myself as well. Anyways, I’m here! That’s what matters now, right? Okay, enough with this introduction crap.

Last April 26 was the last day of our final examinations and was also the last day of the Second Semester. GUYS, FINALLY I FINISHED ONE YEAR! I already mentioned this before that I was a ‘supposedly second year college student’ this academic year but since I didn’t get to enrol for second sem last year and I transferred to another university, I was a first year once again. Nevertheless, I’M DONE WITH FIRST YEAR COLLEGE STAGE. I AM SECOND YEAR NEXT SEM AND IT FEELS SO GLORIOUS TO TAKE ANOTHER STEP TOWARDS MY AMBITION.

On a lighter note, a part of me feels so sad because my original batchmates are incoming Third Year students this June and you guys know what that means? … white uniform!!! I am so so so jealous :(
The second picture really sums up my college life so far. Not only because I’m a medtech student but because that’s that. It’s true that in order to survive school, you need to give a part of yourself or worse, your whole-self. In my case, I gave everything just to yield the best grades. I want to repay my parents for all the money I wasted in my former school. Until now, I feel so guilty for not taking my semester in USI seriously. So this semester, I really burned the midnight oil. My subjects weren’t even that toxic yet but it almost ate me. How much of my being would school eat when the time that my subjects become more difficult then? (Disclaimer: photo not mine)
I am really disappointed with myself because I didn’t get to study hard for final examinations. I am so frustrated because I allowed myself to be distracted by someone who will never know I ever existed. I’m so disappointed because I spent my time reading a Harry Styles fanfiction and ‘instant fangirling upon discovery’ instead of memorizing the process of Titration… instead of practicing Symbolic Logic… instead of reviewing properly. Not that I am blaming Hazza, I love him but the time he got me swooned was a brilliant story of wrong timing. But what’s done is done and I am now a newly born Harry girl. I’m just wishing that Haz’s dimples bring good fortune and won’t let me receive a grade lower than 2 *cross fingers*
Last April 30, me and my mother went to Naga City. She had some business to do in there and I thought it’s nice to visit the place so I went with her. I was so nostalgic with my freshman college days. I visited my former school, Universidad de Sta. Isabel because I thought my friends have summer classes. Sadly, my attempt to surprise them was a complete failure because my friends already took Biostat which means they don’t have summer classes any more so I ended up strolling around. Well, not really around because I didn’t go past SCL Building. I miss USI so much. Sometimes, I regret transferring to another school. You know, me and my friends there made a little pact that we will walk down the Winding Stairs altogether. The stairs was like the Arc something in UST where if you walk through it, there’s a myth that you won’t graduate or something (or the debar thing?), same goes with USI but it’s not yet official … official in a way that there is a ceremony like the freshmen walk in UST. You’ll only take the stairs during graduation. So obviously, I broke the pact and I won’t experience the glory of the winding stairs because 1) I am no longer an Isabelina 2) they will graduate earlier than I because they’re one year ahead. But then, a quick snap brings me to reality – I transferred because it’s not my dream university … not that TUA is my dream university but it kinda sufficed. (Oh great, now the heartbreak of not getting in SLU’s back)

I thought of visiting my boarding house there but I was reminded how much of a hideous bitch were my housemates there so I didn’t. Yep, you read it right. I also lived in a boarding house because Naga was (almost) 2-hour drive away from my folks’ house.
Same day when we went to Naga, I, my mother, her colleague and daughter had a snack at Rai Rai Ken. It was my first time there because I’m a forever patron of Jollibee, Mcdo and KFC. I am clueless as to what to eat so I just had my mother choose for me. She got me a ramen and I heard of ramen from my bff so I didn’t retaliate. It was, again my first time because I am not a fan of eating alien foods I mean foreign (wait, you love siomai to death, how could it be possible that you don’t eat foreign foods?) but yeah, something like that so I was on the edge of my seat, thinking what that food prolly tastes like. It didn’t disappoint my assumption. Ramen tastes so good but not good enough for me to worship it.
And yep, I’m on my summer break. I am currently here in my hometown in Bicol and will be staying here until and before August 3. I am not gonna enrol in the required summer classes for First Year students in TUA because my father’s going home in the country on June and I can’t trade him for two subjects. Originally, summer class is composed of 3 subjects but I already took Phil. History so I only have two subjects left. I think it won’t mess my curriculum … or so I think???
Was really heartbroken with Zouis fight. I made it clear that I am not a directioner because it’s only Harry that I fancies but I was really hurt that their broship already sunk. I didn’t know them for years and I wasn’t able to watch them grow but I’ve been spending my sumvac watching their videos and reading fanfictions because of Harry and I know just the right knowledge about how much the lads have been through together. I am in no position to tell this to Zayn but you don’t do that to your brother, right? Well anyway, let’s just be happy for Zayn because I think he finally achieved his dream … you know, I think it’s quite alright for a normal 22 year-old lad to take a selfie with a greasy burrito using some mac filter??? Hahahaha rude self, rude.

I am yet to love 1D but I grew to love the rest of the lads as the days pass by. I think there’s nothing wrong if I will? … except for my mainstream hater self which probably swears me to death now. I think it’s a perfect timing that I begin to follow the band as four … without Zayn so I won’t feel bad and inferior with other directioners because I missed almost 5 years. I know 1D won’t be the same 1D without Zayn and we can’t erase that. What I am saying is for now, they were starting to flaunt as four so it’s also the hint of my 1D spirit animal’s release – I’m gonna start being a fan of the 1D with four lads.
On that exact same day, my sad vibes was lit by the amazing news from the other side of the globe. The staff had already casted a Clary Fray and she’s so gorgeous. As much as I want Lily Collins to remain as Clary, I am aware how complicated it is so I’m really really really trying my best to just accept it. And oh, yes you read it right. The Mortal Instruments is finally franchised into a TV Series and it is now called Shadowhunters. It’s a massive dream come true for me and I really cried when I heard the news. I was disappointed with the actor Jace because 1) he’s not Jamie Campbell-Bower 2) he tweeted Kat, the actress Clary something like “let’s protect the human world from downworlders” like wtf? You’re not killing Magnus and Luke are you? I know it’s a simple thing but for me it’s not. He should’ve read the series first or at least the City of Bones. You are Jace, what are you doing with your life? No shit, this was really a big deal for me.

Jamie, Lily and Robert will be my forever Jace, Clary and Simon. As much as I’m so hyped with TMI being a TV series, I’m equally sad because they aren’t the actors I’d be seeing to give life to the series that has a huge space in my heart anymore. I’m so sorry guys. I know the staff won’t choose an actor who isn’t good but Jamie, Lily and Robert were the best.
I’ve been dreading for years to create one since I want to retweet every bouts of my faves but I don’t want to flood my (main) account with endless RTs so I finally made a separate fan account on Twitter. Also, I made a reblog blog. Same reason with Twitter, I want to reblog things and I don’t want this blog to flood you guys. I’m aware these accounts were lame but it would mean a lot if you’d follow them.

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Aaahh finally, I’m done talking. I’m not sure when (and what) my next post will be because we still don’t have our internet connection back. Pocket wifi is no fun and I am running out of bucks. So just stay tuned. Anyway, I want to thank everyone who keeps on reading my blog even though this is a huge sort of crap in the internet. This will be the first time that I’m doing this but you guys can reach me through my other social networking sites and get updated with my pointless whereabouts (wow feeling legit blogger). Thank you so much guys and have a wonderful summer! ;)))

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May 09, 2015| 21 Notes

L I F E L A T E L Y

Last March 10, we went to Brgy.Tatalon, to the adopted community of TUA College of Education for our NSTP. It’s one of a kind experience because I got to teach kids one-on-one. You know, I don’t really have the heart of teaching even though my mom is a teacher and I played like I was a teacher during childhood. It feels different to teach kids who are not related to me. I got to teach Alex and EJ. We taught them how to make picture frames out of popsicle sticks. At first, it was awkward especially with Alex since the girl is as wallflower as I am. But at the latter part, she became participative and she’s the one who put the sticks after I put glue. On the other hand, I enjoyed my time with EJ. He’s so active and a bit shy. I teased him Kokey and he called me fat so I punched him … just kidding! The frame we did is like Alex’s but EJ’s frame got some design and it was like a mini-house. They graduated last Monday and I wasn’t able to come because 1) I wasn’t informed and 2) I have classes. I am so happy I enrolled to 1ED01 in NSTP because again, most of the students taking NSTP in main campus don’t go to the community.
One day last week, I was walking along the patio and came across with this Thursday Jamming at the Students’ Lounge. It was so so cool and I wanna give a thumbs up to the brain who thought of this idea. I can’t believe there are lots of talented Trinitians both in singing and playing the guitar. Sadly, last Thursday was the last jamming for this year, if I am not mistaken. I hope they’d do this again like twice a month because it’s so so cool and it will also give some recognition not just only to the jammers but to the organization as well.
Been buying taho frequently. I miss this so much because this is my childhood. I can still remember how my elder sister and I run like we’re tributes in the 75th Hunger Games just to go out of our house before the man selling taho pass by our place. I think I haven’t eaten this since I was in Grade 5 until last year, when I was still there. Woah, that’s hella long, eh.
Last Thursday, we finished our Unknown Cations Analysis. It was an individual task and we were tasked to identify what cations are present in the unknown solution our professor gave us. We were given an estimate of 5mL of an unknown solution and there are 4 cations in it. At first, I was so nervous because I have a little to no idea about unknown analysis since I got to miss one laboratory due to morning blindness and my lab partner didn’t even bother telling me what is what. She’s in her friends and she even had the nerve to bring our toolbox-which-I-bought-almost-everything in their place. But, I told you guys, solitude is my freaking bestfriend. Working without anyone around you is the best strategy in doing an unknown analysis in chemistry because you’ll get to know everything on your own. Guess what, I was the first one to finish identifying the four cations in the whole class. Could you believe it? I got Sr+, Ca+, Mg+ and Na+.
So I got myself a bus ticket en route to Bicol for this Holy Week. I got it last March 18, way too early for a trip on 31st but Superlines had 31st all-booked, there are few remaining seats but those on the last part of the bus. I wouldn’t take those because surely, seating on the last seat of the bus will be the death of me. I nearly bought a ticket for a trip to Naga just for me to be able to go home but the 31st’s trip to Naga was also and already fully-booked. I was about to go home when I thought of trying to go to DLTB Terminal. When I went to the ticketing booth, I was so nervous because I’m afraid their 31st trip’s already fully-booked but Heaven heard my prayers, it wasn’t. Actually, there are no any reservations yet. I wouldn’t doubt it since DLTB is more expensive than Superlines. It’s my first time to ride DLTB to Bicol and I have no idea if they have a stop-over in Atimonan. My system’s used to Superlines’ Atimonan stop-over like I automatically wake-up when the place is near. Anyways, I’m so excited to be back home after three freaking straight months.
This week has been the busiest week I’ve ever had this whole semester and it’s all because of baby thesis. I did the freaking final thesis manuscript for two days and imagine my fatigue. On Wednesday, me and Pau went to Camp Crame to gather some data. It was so tiring because the camp is so huge and we were passed by office to office. We almost had a round-trip in there. Anyhoo, it was a success since we got the latest statistics of Juvenile Delinquents in the entire Philippines. On Thursday, we asked permission to our professor because we won’t attend our class since we’re going to DSWD and she allowed us. My Fil102 prof also allowed me to ditch her class. So there, we went to Batasan, Quezon City and the trip ate almost all of our time. It wasn’t a success because most of the staff were in Subic, Baguio and Sequoia Hotel for a “seminar” but we gathered some outside sources where we got almost all the data we were supposed to get in DSWD.
We all have this prejudice to policemen; useless human who only bloat and get fat sitting in their offices, always late during crimes and every negative thing but we always commend DSWD because they have the heart in saving every lost souls. Sorry to break your prejudice guys but it was reverse. PNP is very much commendable than DSWD. This is a statement coming from someone who got to enter both of its central offices and again, it’s PNP who got the heart to help lost souls. I was really disappointed with the staff of DSWD Central Office. They were so useless. Don’t get me wrong, you might think I call them useless because we weren’t able to gather data from them but no, that’s not the reason why I called them useless. We entered the office and we were standing in the information desk for like 10 minutes but no one even bothered entertaining us. Worse, there are lots of staff in the area and they saw us, they look at us but they continued chit-chatting like they saw none. The only time we got entertained was when a staff entered the office. Another thing is, why do these people need to be gone during freaking working days just for a freaking “training/seminar”? And why do they need to hold a seminar for two different departments at the same time? They could’ve scheduled it on weekends, right? Or one after another. And why is a training or seminar needs to be conducted in Subic and Baguio? So classy naman for social workers. While in PNP, we were just about to enter the door but you can see that the police assigned in the information desk was already preparing to welcome us. We were directed to different offices but each office gave us an escort. They even had those happy faces and calm voices unlike in DSWD, they have that tone which connotes that it’s our fault that their staff is out for a “seminar”. I’m aware this is just a small matter and is not a big deal but big things start from small things and I think DSWD failed to start doing good things in smaller parameter. Forgive me for this sudden rant but I just want to vent this one.
Swear guys, last week was really crazy especially last Friday. At midnight, I started finishing the manuscript and I fell asleep and woke up 10 minutes late for my morning class which was PE. My mind was really in chaos since the other part tells me to get up and prepare for school but the other half tells me to stay and finish the fcking thesis. In the end, I went to school since we’re practicing for our finals and I can’t miss a spot in the choreo. Then, I ditched my lit class in the afternoon just to finish the baby thesis. I can’t believe I ditched my Literature class. We actually have a scheduled quiz that day but I wasn’t able to take it since I ditched but I asked my prof if I could take the quiz and he said yes. I was also late in our Stat Lab Quiz because I’ve beaten the 5pm deadline of our prof for us to submit the manuscript. The deadline was supposedly the day before Friday but because DSWD’s data were not yet in our hands that time, we asked for an extension and Friday at 5pm’s the longest extension we got.
I am so mad with my two other groupmates. They’re freaking useless and I’m afraid they will pull the group’s grade down because they know nothing. They’re both Turkish nationals and I sound like a racist but I won’t choose any foreigner thesis or group member anymore.
We also had the results in our Philo Semi-Final Exam and surprise, I GOT A PERFECT SCORE. I didn’t expect I’d get a perfect score since I just got a satisfactory grade in our quiz related to the semis exam. I’m so happy because I have the privilege of not taking the final exam since I am exempted. The Symbolic Logic seems so hard and if anachem is equally hard, I’d consider utilizing the benefit of being exempted.
And last week, we had our CSC Elections. I’m quite disappointed because that wasn’t what I expected for a university elections. There’s only one party who ran and to avoid failure of elections, we need to vote yes or no. I know exactly what it feels like to run in a school election and I know the desire for leadership so I voted yes.

That’s pretty much it! If you could notice, I didn’t write an intro because I’ve ran out of words. Besides, my mind is still under the spell of thesis-writing. Monday’s our defense and woop, wish me luck guys! I need it.

Thank you so much for reading! And oh, by the way. Happy Graduation to all the graduates of Batch 2015. Welcome to the university of life. College of reality.

March 29, 2015| 12 Notes

L I F E L A T E L Y

Waddup errbody? It’s been quite a while since I last posted a life lately entry so I thought of posting one.

Last week, our university held its 52nd Foundation Anniversary. It’s a week-long celebration only that we had regular classes on the first three days of the week. On Monday, I was late for my Analytical Chemistry class because my alarm failed to wake me. Good thing, my professor still accepted me in the class, still marked me present and she just told me not to be late again. Another good thing, she only gave a review in Qualitative Ways of Expressing Solutions. I thought they weren’t really serious with having classes on the first day of the Foundation Week but damn, they really were. After our class, I went with some of my anachem classmates to the gymnasium to watch the Cheerdance Competition. I’m not really that proud with my department, College of Medical Technology because I hate the arrogant Academic Adviser lol just kidding, idk they were the last performer, they should’ve done better? Yeah, I know I have no rights to complain because I didn’t contribute anything with it. I still give them a round of applause for winning Third Place. I was partly proud with College of Education who defended their Champion title pretty amazing with that Lady Gaga theme. I feel like I have 50 % rights to be proud with them because dude, I’m enrolled in 1ED01 for three subjects *laughs until fade* The College of Business Administration’s performance which was Fallen 44 inspired was really awe striking and we, my classmates and I had goosebumps after their performance.

Uhm gaiz? do you still remember my crush who happened to be my Gen. Chemistry laboratory seatmate last semester whom I was referring to in this post? Guess what, he’s one of the players of our department for the Basketball event and another guess what … HE WAS NUMBER 4 AND OH MY GOD THAT’S MY GODDAMN BIRTHDAY !!! I wonder why was he number 4 … ~~maybe because it’s my birthday? nah, stop assuming, bitch~~. I was never attracted to chinito-and-sports-junkie-type-of-guy until he came in my life … wait, what?

I only stayed until Tuesday because it’s only until that day when I have classes and I’m not really into this kind of occasions – well, I was during my highschool days. Also, my anxieties attack me real hard and I can’t risk myself just to watch those boring games and pageant. Yeah boring because I don’t know who I am rooting for because I don’t know anyone and I don’t wanna cheer for MedTech because I hate the Academic Adviser (hahaha poor Acad. Adviser, always being blamed) So I just stayed here in my dorm and I finished six KathNiel fanfictions on Wattpad and I also worsened my fucked up sleeping schedule. Real fact: I only use Watty because of KathNiel; to read fanfictions about them. I also picked my first challenge in my TBR Jar Challenge and I also started reading it. Uhm the book … it’s obviously the one shown in the Current Read portion of this blog. I’m not really sure yet when will I post it because I’m still waiting for something so that I can just combine it in one post.

And last Thursday, we continued our Cations Analysis experiment and gaiz, guess what again, WE PRODUCED A PRECIPITATE, FINALLY. My lab partner and I were so hyped and crazy because damn, we produced a precipitate and it’s more than what we expected to have. We’re so lunatic and paranoid that time like one of us stabilizes and tells the other one not to move because we’re afraid we might lose our precipitate once again but of course, I’m aware we’re stupid to think that moving would make it disappear because scientifically speaking, it won’t mix with the solvent just because of an abrupt movement because dude, it’s a precipitate.

And today, I was so pissed with how my decisions escalate in just a blink of an eye. I impulsively decided to watch Fifty Shades of Grey and after I was all dressed-up, I just felt lazy that I don’t wanna go anymore. But in the end, I still went. But the problem is, all cinemas were jam-packed with couples … really? Did they even read it? Uhm yep, I know you can watch it even though you haven’t read it yet but I just don’t understand why FSoG should be watched by a tweetums couple on Valentines Day? … isn’t it awkward? to watch it with your boyfriend? I mean, I read it and the idea of watching it with a male never did cross my mind. Maybe you’ll say that it’s up to you and you just need to be mature and be a smart reader and viewer but idk … it’s just weird and it’s really awkward. I could imagine how awkward would it be to those couples who haven’t read the trilogy – or even the first book yet and still dared to watch it *insert innocent but bitchy giggle here* I realized that maybe it’s best if I’ll just stick with the plan – that is, to watch it with my buddy sprwmngmlnd who inspired me to reread Fifty Shades of Grey last year. Despite this annoying searching in vain for cinemas, I still got goodvibes because I also (saw for the second time) had a quick glimpse with Juan Karlos of The Voice Kids serenading the crowd of TriNoma. Did I already mention that I also have a crush with this kid? *giggles*

Before I forgot, I already have a temporary domain. This was referred to me by Ate Mich of imichyouuu and she also got hers. I decided to use this domain until I found a low-cost “.com” domain because my url is so long and the “.tumblr.com” just made it longer. I hope I could find one before this free domain expires.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY everyone! I hope you all had a blast this day and if not, I hope you still enjoyed it. February 14 is not really a good date for me because that’s when I and hehe broke up (as far as I know, lol it’s unoffical remember?) and it’s two years now but I’m still not completely over him … but I’m happy with my life. It’s my second year of spending Valentines Day without a lover (yikes! this is not me, I’m swear I’m not the one who’s saying this because gahd, this is too corny lol) and honestly, it’s not that bad at all. You just have to love yourself and be happy with what you are and what you have at the moment. I, myself, felt a bit jealous to couples I walked past to today but we all know naman na walang forever kaya hahahaha nalang magbebreak din yang mga yan nah, just kidding guys, I’m wishing more love to couples out there. Spread love ❤️

February 14, 2015| 18 Notes

Uhm, hi?

It’s almost February – no, not almost … it’s already February tomorrow and I still haven’t blogged anything about my second semester. I really don’t know what’s happening with me these days but I think I’ve completely lost the spirit to blog. I don’t even know how to start a blog anymore; look at that awkward two-word-paragraph intro! If writers suffer from writer’s block, well, I am presumably under blogger’s block and it SUCKS – heh, is that even a thing?! *insert poker face here*

Anyway, we started our second semester last December 08 and like what I’ve mentioned here before, it was an issue. Of course, I attended school during those two weeks and it’s all worth it because we, those who were present last December, were given additional points *hooray* I currently have 26 units = 9 subjects and maybe this is another reason why I can’t take Tumblr seriously (like what I was doing before) these days because of school works. I only have 14 units last semester and I only got 4 subjects so I was definitely hayahay before and now … I just entered the first gate of hell. Also, I have two subjects in 1ED01; Philo101 and NSTP2 and I have to go to the second campus which is for the Basic Education. It’s really a pain in the ass especially during Mondays and Thursdays because I have Chem105 (Analytical Chemistry) class at 08:30-10:30 for Chem Lecture (M) and 07:30-10:30 (TH) for our laboratory and I have to go to the other campus just to attend my next class which is Philo. My sched in NSTP is not much a hassle even though it was 07:30 in the morning because I can ride a jeepney from my dorm to the BED Campus. Technically, I am enrolled for three subjects in 1ED01, the other one is PE102, it is on Fridays but also not much a hassle because it is at 10:00 am and in the Henry Noble Gymnasium which was situated in the main campus. My everyday routine is school - dorm - study - check FB because of my father - occasionally checks IG - tweet a lot (LOL) and study again until 2 am. Idk, I just find it more comfortable to study at midnight, when the night is asleep. Isn’t it ironic that I have time to tweet but don’t have the time for Tumblr? lol uhm yeah, I go to school without a complete sleep but whatever, I’m used to it. Okay I know it’s bad but don’t worry I am really really really trying my best to repair my fucked up body clock. Anyway, I’ve set a weekly routine and I’m really proud to say I’m following it very well. I am focused to studies for the entire Monday to Friday (but I use Twitter and sometimes, FB Messenger as a neutralizer and a break from over-studying) and let myself wander through the boundless world of internet during Friday night until Sunday afternoon. My schedule (and my lifestyle) is definitely exhausting and I am so so so thankful because I have no Wednesday and Saturday classes. It was like a break from a hectic MTH and TF classes. I’m completely aware that I might not have the privilege of choosing my schedule next semester because I might acquire the regular status because I’ve already taken everything that a regular Trinitian MedTech student needs to take and I’m really taking this opportunity a blessing and hoping I could cope with a schedule with WS classes.

Moving on … in our first laboratory in anachem, we did the Cations Analysis but we (the whole class) weren’t able to finish it. We were only able to come up with two reactions in two reagents. My partner and I faced a big big big problem because of a very very very small thing (kidding! it’s small in size but it was definitely significant). We didn’t produce a precipitate in Mercurous ion with Stannous Chloride which resulted to a loss of a point *sobs real hard* My partner and I can’t figure out what happened – maybe we accidentally shook the tube, causing the precipitate to scatter … maybe we over-centrifuged it or maybe we didn’t really execute the steps correctly. But I learned a lesson, I won’t let my partner tell me what to do again. She’s always telling me “pwede na yan” during our first lab and look what happened. Uhm, nope. I’m not blaming her … we both have a share in this disappointment? we both didn’t do the proper ritual lol.

In my NSTP2 class, I don’t know what to feel. We’re always in the garden and if not, we’re in the classroom. I thought NSTP2 is the application of what you’ve learned in NSTP1 (NSTP1 in TUA is modular, as far as I know) Well, supposedly, we were to go to Brgy. Tatalon, Quezon City last Tuesday but it was postponed. By the way, I didn’t take NSTP1 in TUA, I’ve taken it in my previous school and I’m very thankful for that because I experienced climbing a mountain (Mt. Isarog) just to go to a community over there. But hearing other students who have NSTP2 as well like Hanz, my highschool classmate and friend, who’s an IT student in TUA, said that they were only doing reporting, lots of paperworks and all that kind of stuff … should I feel lucky that I belong to a class who does gardening?

Enough with bullshits, let’s talk about goodshits.

I got a flat 1 in my Philippine History subject last semester and I really died a hundred times. I was assuming for an uno because come on, who doesn’t? But I never really thought an assumption wouldn’t only be just an assumption. I am really happy because all those overnight cuddling with Philippine History articles were all worth it. Super worth it! I love history so much and this is just too glorious !!!

Second, I found myself reciting in most of my classes this semester which is very unusual to me because it’s not my thing and I never did recite if it wasn’t a graded recitation during my highschool days (and even in my former school, USI) I still get the overbearing throbbing and cold sweat and chills whenever I think of raising my hand but I mostly overcome it. I hope this will continue because I’m really really vying for good grades.

And oh by the way, this was really really unexpected and I never thought that this was, in any way, possible. I have a personal blogger classmate in my Basic Statistics class and she’s none other than pearltriestoblog, the one who aided me and answered all my queries about TUA when I was just in the stage of searching for a university to transfer. To be completely honest, it’s really awkward to have someone whom you met/ knew on Tumblr as a classmate. I’m really hesitant to approach her because I don’t know … I. just. can’t. :( We converse a lot in here but we can’t even drop a single word outside Tumblr. How ironic. That’s it my friends, another disadvantage of virtual world to personal communications *juzkidding*

The feeling I’m having this semester’s new like I’m a legit fresh high school graduate. I never had experienced second semester during my rightful time (which was last 2013) and it feels like that my legit college life only started just this semester.

That’s pretty much it! I hope you’re all having a good life.

Before I end this post, I would like to express my sincerest sympathy to the families who lost a father, a brother, a son and a husband in the Mamasapano Massacre. To be honest, I am not aware that something like this had happened if it wasn’t for my Philo101 prof who mentioned it during our discussion. I have no television here in my room … well, there’s one in the sala but I really have no interest in watching tv now because idk, since I moved here, I never watched television on a daily basis. I’m so outdated with everything except for things that are being discussed on Twitter. My heart was torn to pieces upon reading the part of one article I’ve read. Here’s the citation:

And so much more to the narration of a survivor in an interview:

“My fellow policemen were looking at pictures of their wives, children and family, before they died."As if they had already accepted their fate, many of those he saw were looking at their cellphones, Robert said.

It’s sad how the death of many, a 44 men precisely (and all previous deaths in relation with this issue) isn’t enough yet to achieve what we’re struggling to achieve for in years. I am ending this post with a quote:

"Impunity must never be part of the price we pay for peace”

January 31, 2015| 23 Notes

One semester down, 10 semesters to go and I’m done with pre-med.

Finally done with (serious) first semester of my first year life. Woah, time flies so fast! It’s like yesterday, I’ve finished a semester in USI and by this moment, I am officially out-of-school and now, I just finished a semester in TUA—currently on a sembreak and waiting for 2nd semester. I admit, it was pretty challenging but it was lighter and more bearable than my previous first semester experience. Maybe because of having only four subjects (transferee perks!) or maybe because I already prepared myself for all possible things that I may encounter. Studying away from home … been there, done that! In my previous school, I also lived in a dormitory because the university I was enrolled to is a two-hour drive away from my native land. It was a challenge to me this semester because studying and living in a dormitory in NCR is another story. Compared to my previous school, I can go home on weekends as often as I like but now, going home during long weekends would be my rarest option other than going home during term and holiday breaks; nostalgia is my biggest foe.

One thing I love about this semester is it made me utilize solitude as a tool for making me somehow self-actualized. Due to my irregular status, I was enrolled in different courses, blocks and sections in each subjects, making friendships turn unsteady and blurry for me. During the first meeting, I hid my introvert self and tried my best to socialize with different people in each class but it seems as though that making friends is not really my thing. During the second meeting, some of them have already found cliques in their blocks. They still remark my presence in some ways but not like the way we were during the first meeting. It made me feel like I was used — they were only on my side when they have no one to be with, when no one seemed to like being with them and the moment they found new people, they just left me unaccompanied. Maybe they just notice me to decry civility. I, then, decided to befriend myself rather. I acknowledge the idea of some of them calling me as one of their friends and I’m very thankful for that but for me, they weren’t my friends, just acquaintances. A friend for me isn’t just someone who gives you a company, it’s more than that.

It’s cool standing on your own feet. I also found being friendless beneficial because it made my self-discipline game to be perfectly on point. I learned to answer problem sets with my own knowledge because no one’s gonna aid me. I’ve never depended in my seatmate during quizzes and examinations because I don’t know who my seatmate is. Clearly, how can I ask for help? Having my situation last semester made my old study habits (when I was in highschool during the time when I have a fixed position in Top 5) go tight. And made my cheater-hater self possessed me once again. (Mind you, I was somehow notorious in our class when I was in highschool for slaying the evil tails of cheaters; I always report activities of cheating to the teachers) I never felt sad while I was walking along the patio alone. It was actually better to be kissed by the cool (but polluted) city air than to be kissed by a fake friend. I also had more fun hearing the buzz of the busy streets than hearing gossips and etcetera of my “friends”. I may have ached for a friend’s shoulder some time in previous semester but I didn’t mean it to be a new one, ‘twas my bicol friends whom I was referring to.

You must actually could tell that I am a complete wallflower. Well, I couldn’t agree more. It’s hardly impossible for me to not have fun even if I’m alone. Maybe because I grew up like this. I’ve never been so outgoing since childhood. Are you going to believe me if I tell you that I have no friends nor any acquaintances here in our barangay? I find pleasure and company in inanimate things that surrounds me. I can befriend a Barbie doll, pictures but mostly books. I imagine my parents blaming themselves for letting me stay in my room the entire day reading books of any class; a textbook, encyclopedia, dictionary, tales and Disney pocketbooks during my childhood while some of my cousins were out in the front yard playing hide and seek. Sometimes, I ask myself if it was the situation’s fault that’s why I’m like this or was it my fault because I am constantly dragging myself to a situation I created where I would think it was the situation’s fault that’s why I’m like this?

Anyway, I was interviewed by the moderator of the HUGSociety. She asked me how well I am doing in the school, in each of my class considering that I am living independently. I told her about me not showing any affection in gaining friends and she hardly believed what am I saying. She asked for reasons and I gave her some. Like what I told her, one thing I don’t want in having “friends” is the peer pressure. We all go through some points wherein we can no longer have a tight grasp with our self-discipline and we completely drench ourselves to the rhythm of whatever the peer was telling you to do and that’s what I am avoiding. Second, I went to NCR to study. Making friends is good but it is not that necessary isn’t it? She asked me how could I simply do it like I took a masteral degree of it. I told her: 'the moment I enter the classroom, my attention is on the board and the professor. I don’t care whoever’s beside me. It’s like the moment the lecture starts, it feels as though that I, the professor and the words inscribed in the board or in the textbook I have were the only things that matter.’ (except during Chem class where there’s my crush. He’s kinda bugging this concentration I have tho hahaha) She also asked me how could I handle it all by myself whenever I have problems or situations that requires a talk and everything. I told her that I don’t (often) ask for help whenever I have problems. Mostly, I keep it to myself and to this blog. She uttered some words that expressed a mild ridicule but yeah, no one could actually understand how significant a blog is if you’re not a blogger, am I right? Eventually, I get to realize that the problems I keep weren’t really problems. If you’re gonna ask how … I’m sorry, idk either.

Moving on …

This semester had let me do things I haven’t done before and I was longing and hoping to do. Like meeting my idols and all that stuff. This previous semester have let me do a shit ton of accomplishments–I must say, in my fangirling life. I’ve seen Christina Grimmie perform live. I watched Renee Pionso live and got that chance to meet and have a couple of pictures with her. I even saw Juan Karlos but he was in disguise. I also got to watch Daniel Padilla play basketball up-close and of course, I would never forget that time when Rhap Salazar sang/ dedicated a song I love for me while I was reviewing for Midterm Examinations. I’m really looking forward for more of this in the coming semesters.
This semester also showed me how the voice of the students was being handled by the university I chose to transfer to. It’s not a fine sight actually but whatever commotion there is, I’m a Trinitian because I am studying. Even if the entire studentry is rallying, I’m going to school to study. As long as my rights is not being stepped on, me and the administration won't have any problem.
I also got to meet a Twitter friend. She was a super-duper famous blogger sometime in 2012 and we hypothetically concluded that we might have known each other sometime here in Tumblr but we’re not aware of it. She handed me her journal during our first meet. I read one of her writings, and I realized I read it somewhere here and yeah, the woah sensation came to vial us. She’s a part of Trinity Observer and she’s the key why I entered the TO Office even though I am not a part of the Editorial Staff and the key why I got a glossy copy of their recent issue and some folios that was published last year (it was a big deal for me, okay?). Sadly, she mentioned some words about leaving. I hope she’ll stay in TUA so that I can still enroll in her class and make all our plans came into action.
The previous semester also let me author my own book. I just made a damn compendium of newspapers from 2004 to 2014. I wish I had the money to reproduce it but nuh, I’m too broke.
My English101 professor offered me to transfer in UP. He asked me my grades and told me my grades were qualified to UP standards (as they call it). At first, I really want to bite it. Not all students were given such opportunity. I’ve heard that the process is easier if you have a “backer”. UP is not actually my dream university (and I didn’t even take UPCAT because there is no uniform lol) but the tuition … my parents could actually save 75% of my tuition in TUA if I grab that offer but I’m afraid I would fail my subjects the moment I’m already in UP. I’m afraid my brain won’t fit in the UP standards.

I hope all my hard-works will be paid off. I might not have exerted all my best but I know I’ve given enough effort to deserve an A grade. The grades will be released on December 1 and I feel so nervous. Unlike in USI, my previous school, the grades were being encoded starting from prelim to finals but now, in TUA, I’ll only know my final grade.

This semester had spoiled me with lots of free time because I only have four subjects and by next semester, it will be 10. I hope it’ll be bearable and I hope it won’t drive me nuts. Since I only have 14 units this semester, I am not qualified for Dean’s List. I really want to qualify for DL because of (1) the scholarship, (2) it’s the least I can do for my parents and (3) the glory of being in it will serve as the remuneration for all the efforts I would possibly give. I hope during the end of next semester, I ’ll be able to see my name posted in bulletin boards under the banner of Dean’s Lister.

(Anyway, if you’re wondering why was it “1 down and 10 semesters to go” … we have summer classes and it was some kind of required like we were trisem but we’re not actually trisem. They only hid it behind the name “Summer Classes” but it’s not optional because you need to take those subjects during summer … or so I think?)

November 30, 2014| 10 Notes

Of abrupt Academic Calendar shift and unsung Academic Rights and Freedom

December 08, 2014. I guess, each Trinitian, may it be a Freshman or a Senior, will have a sole connotation about this date’s representation. It seems as though that Halloween took its place earlier than as it was expected. December 08 … it’s more spooky than Friday the 13th because it’s the new start of Second Semester … yes, from January 5, it’s now shifted to December 08.

At first, I am mad … so mad that I came to the point where I regret that I chose to transfer in Trinity. So mad that I thought of transferring again to other school because shit is real in Trinity. So mad to the extent that I belittled Trinity and questioned the Board of Directors’ level of thinking because of their decision to change the Academic Calendar without considering the students’ sentiments first. Imagine, we’ve all been waiting for December to come because as what they’ve said during the orientation, the whole month of December will be our sembreak, they were all so proud and confident to introduce the revised Academic Calendar back then but … what the fuck just happened?

Okay let’s say you made a mistake, let’s say you “overlooked” at the calendar you made but you can’t just expect us to accept it easily because we students were all have been anticipating for this. We expected for a month-long sembreak, we’ve planned things to do in the sembreak you have told and given us then you’re just going to withdraw it a month before December? In the first place, we didn’t ask you for this one month sembreak; we didn’t ask you to change your calendar, to move the start of classes from June to July, just to say the school’s in sync with other famous universities in the country … isn’t it unfair for us, students that we are the ones who’ll shoulder the consequences of your misdemeanor? Firstly, you should have studied every single detail critically before you decided to revise your Academic Calendar then you’ll reason out that “we just noticed the mistake just this Monday, October 27, 2014 and for that we were very sorry” … bullshit! If TUA is a company, this “small mistake” might have caused a big disaster in the entire firm. You’ll say we are just your students and we are just under the administration but mind you, we are just your students but we are your major stockholders.

But the surge of anger I feel toward TUA thawed when my mom replied on my rants. I suddenly realized what is the purpose why I’m involved in this commotion. I suddenly realized why I am called Trinitian. I’m a part of Trinity University of Asia because I’m their student and as a student, I am compelled to study. Truth be told, I only went here in the city to study. So no matter what month school will start, I’m here to study. After realization hit me, shame vialed me as I envisage my Father who’s abroad, alone, spending everyday of his life and getting old without the solace of his family … who’s aching to go home and to stay here in the Philippines for good, but chooses to remain working across nations because I’m not yet finished with my studies while my Mother, on the other hand, spends hours of standing and teaching (talking with) over 70 students everyday just to support my daily financial needs plus the hardships she experiences in our house; doing household chores, her daughter, mother, lola and teacher duties all at the same time. They were both busy thinking how to have us survive life without cutting support in my studies while I … I’m just thinking about my prorogued vacation.

I would like to refute that the admin’s decision is unfair for the students. It’s not true that the admin and faculty will be the ones who will benefit most in this sudden change of Academic Calendar because of the alleged advantages of them for having more income (moneys) from the enrolment. Like what the professor in the Open Forum said, “what is unfair if you’re going to learn?”. It’s true that the admin disregarded two of the students’ (academic) rights as stated in the Magna Carta of Students; the Right to represent/ make a body in Policy Making and the Right to be Informed. But like what they’ve said in their rebuttal, it is not a practice of the school nor of any other universities to have students participate in the establishment of academic calendar because it’s an administrative matter and I attest that it is, definitely, outside the student concerns so the admin didn’t really show any neglect of this right. The latter, of course, was, without a doubt, the administration’s biggest dereliction. And a simple sorry wont really sanctify every students’ hatred and dismay-filled hearts.

But my fellow students, I would like to reiterate that this sudden change in our Academic Calendar isn’t unfair to us. We are students, we are not vacation-ists. We still have our semestral break and like other schools, it’s a two-week break. And traditionally speaking, sembreaks last for two weeks only. We are lucky enough because we still have sembreak. There are schools out there who doesn’t have any sembreak. If you’re saying that you’re in dire need of this #Decembreak because you need to have a break from studying, make sure first that you really are studying during (this) first semester and you’re not just depending on your seatmates or friends. I feel sorry for those working students who planned on spending December to work just to support their studies for the next semester and to those students who were supposed to go home in their fatherlands, like me, but chooses to stay because of school. I don’t aim to earn brownie-points here but if you don’t want to attend school on December 08 then don’t. End of the agony.

December 08, 2014. This no longer suggests horror to me just because this day is the start of second semester and the promised month-long vacation was taken away from me. This date, for me, represents the immolation of my ostensible chance of being with my family for at least a month after spending months without seeing them, away from the comfort of my home in exchange of schooling; in exchange of greener pasture.

October 31, 2014| 12 Notes

WEEK IN SQUARES -

August must be really in a rush. Its days passed by so quickly that I cannot believe it sums up a total of approximately 30 days. August has kept me busy, stressed and happy at the same time. August just made me fully realize how fast time could fly. It made me realize that I should make every second count because time is so precious and I cannot re-do what I did for the past one second; no more wasting of time for the next months. Anyhoo, this is an update of my life for this week and I’m so proud of myself because I have something to post this time *giggles*

I went home to my hometown in Bicol during the long weekend last August 22 and damn, I missed everything. Asked mom to cook me tinapa which is the only fish I eat (random fact: even though we live in the municipality of Mercedes which is known for fishing stuff, I do solemnly swear this is the only fish I eat because it’s so yummy and yummy again) because my taste buds super duper missed its taste already. I even asked my mother to pack me tinapa for me to have something to bring here in Manila. I shared it with my roomie who also missed eating it.
Went to my highschool alma mater to bond with my friends. They thought I was just fooling them that I’m home hahaha gahd, I missed their craziness! I wish I could just put them in my luggages and bring them here. Attended the GPTA Meeting for my (bestfriend) tugang Jaymar. He got the Best in English award for the First Quarter nuxx, it runs in the blood lol
Celebrated my little sister’s birthday last August 23. We ate at McDo and they played at the nearby WOF. I was stupefied when my niece went in front of the XBOX (?) then mimiced what’s in the Just Dance monitor. I was wearing the “shuck-klunk” face while my mom and older sister were just smiling at me.
Prelim exams done = prelims stress over = chill time
Got some demons on my face lately. I can’t understand why. I barely have pimples on my cheeks since I undergone puberty (only on my forehead during pre-menstrual shit) and when I am still in Bicol then when I went here in the city, I got aliens on my face. Is it because of the dirt here or is this my karma for making fun of people who got shitloads of pimps?
Started saving up for my EK Trip with my HS Batchmates on December. I just wanted to secure myself in case my parents don’t allow me and don’t give me mollah for this. Joven and I were just kidding ourselves that we should “save 20 peso-a-day” and I just did it with so much seriousness lol
Had our Campus Recollection last Thursday. There came another shit of being an irregular student; the night before it, I wasn’t sure if I’m included there but my roomie told me to just go there and join them. She matter of factly mentioned that my subject that time is at 1BSMTO1, their section so basically, no lecture and that means there’s a possibility that I’m included. I was so conflicted that time. I don’t want to go because there’s no lecture and I am not sure if I’m included ~~plus I want to sleep more~~ but I cannot risk the attendance. I thought the attendance will be counted in my Chemistry class (which is my class for that time) but eventually, was damn wrong. Uhm, do you get my point? lol I went there and saw my classmate who’s also a transferee so I thought I am really included but shit just got real, I didn’t find my name on their list. The facilitator told me to just write my name there and voila, done. The program was so smooth. The speakers were so cute and very effective. No dead air, you can even laugh even though their jokes were so waley and corny (in reality) plus you can really find yourself listening to them.
Been absent for my two subjects, English 101 and Phil. History for the first time in forshitever because of oversleeping. It’s so funny that the reason why I overslept is that I was advance reading for these two subjects lol how ludicrous. Say byebye to uno :(
Ally Condie, the author of Matched Trilogy just freakin replied to me on Twitter !!! Sadly, I accidentally deleted my tweet to her. Well the thing is, SHE ANSWERED ME LIKE BOOYEAH WE’RE HAVING THE SAME ASSUMPTIONS AND WISH LOL.
Campus Club Fair: Wet Edition. Meh, I’m so crestfallen with it. The org fair of USI last year was more convincing than theirs. Ugh! I got disappointed for a lot of times already. Trinity, you don’t shit me.
General Cleaning today! Me and my roomie cleaned and remodelled our dorm room this afternoon. We interchanged the places of our beds, closets and everything. The room looked a lot more spacious than before. Thanks for the space, I finally had the chance to have a bedside table.

That’s pretty much it. I’m so thankful that I’m a province native meaning I have province to go to during free time just to breathe-in fresh air. Gahd, the air pollution in here’s unbearable that I need to use facemask sometimes … or I’m just not used to it? I’m so thankful that we live in the province where fresh air is our oxygen, not contaminated oxygen. Moving on, I feel super productive this week. I hope that this will continue on the next days. On a lighter note, 2 more days, it's ber months already. Advanced Merry Christmas! hohoho

August 30, 2014| 23 Notes

Mom visited me again here in MNL last August 08. We went to SM Fairview on Friday and went to Divisoria by Saturday. Got bunch of things and lots of munching while she’s here. I cried when she left (what’s new?) but this time, I cried directly to her because I just couldn’t hold my feels anymore. She said this is my choice - to study far from home and then she told me that I need to accept the consequences of studying here.
Hello Kitty fever. My HK addiction is baaaack! Idk how but my affection to HK is again alive, beating and pumping. Turned my bedspread and pillowcases to Hello Kitty. I also bought lots of Hello Kitty stuff like earpods, comb, soap holder and many more. So kawaii!
Meet mah new bae. I finally convinced mom to buy me a ukulele. I’ve been clamoring (what) for this and I’m so happy, it didn’t took long for me to have one. But, this is just a beginner uke. It’s not the mahogany type. Mom told me that she’ll buy me mahogany uke if I’ll succeed teaching myself how to play ukulele. Yes, you read it right. I’m gonna learn to do this all by myself. I decided to learn how to play uke because I have lots of free time this semester and I want to be productive. But, I don’t have much time to enroll myself to ukulele lessons, I only have enough time to watch ukulele video tutorials online. Back to what mom said, she told me that because I think she’s just afraid that things will just be on repeat. She enrolled me in Guitar Lessons twice before when I was in highschool and I failed learning how to play a guitar. I think she doesn’t like to buy me a mahogany uke because she’s afraid that in the end, I’m not gonna use it din naman pala because I don’t know how to play it. You see, it’s way too expensive to be wasted at the end of the day lol. At the same time, to challenge me to succeed in learning how to play the uke.
Been eating to almost all nearby fast-food chains lately. Very unhealthy, I know. I missed eating real foods (foods cooked by my mother) and I don’t really trust the foods being cooked by other people soooooo … fast-food!
CR Selfie woot. On a lighter note, I took this picture 2 weeks ago and the bracelet I am wearing in the picture is now gone. Idk where I lost it. It has a sentimental value to me. My name was engraved on it and mom picked that kind of design - dog tag bracelet. I never took it off my wrist since July 12 because it’s the day when my mother bought it for me and she’s the one who put it on and yeah, I didn’t even dare to take it off even when going to shower because of it’s sentimental value and now, it’s gone. It really feels odd to wake up in the morning without the feeling that something’s dangling on your wrist.
Hidden Treasures. Raided Booksale’s deepest bookshelf and found these treasures. I finally found a bookstore and it’s just near my place, why did I know this just recently? I’m really looking forward to eat I mean read these books.
Artsy-craftsy DIY-ed charger. Bumped with this cutie idea when I was bloghopping at alyssadiaries’ blog and I was like ‘whoa, I should try this’ and tadaa! I love its output. The design I picked was kind of lacy and it appears like a ribbon to me though. Ugh, idk how to describe it. Whatever, it’s cute. I find this idea so cool because there’s no need for me to buy those customized USB chords and adapters online. And you know, this is more economical compared with buying those customized (and pretty pricey, if I may add) ones. So if I got bored (lol) with one design, I only have to buy a new design of Washi Tape and do it again and again. See, you can really get as much design as you want without spending that much. Thank you for this idea Ms. Alyssa.
Tomorrow’s the start of our preliminary examinations. I only have 4 subjects but I am still nervous about it especially Philippine History. I find that subject really enticing and really hard at the same time. The words used in every article were too deep and I must say, my lexical prowess (if ever there is lol) was being nullified.
Just a photo-dump of my key chain. I got this last year and I must commend its strength because it’s still alive.
The school publication published their first issue for this school year and it just hit me that I am wasting every second. I still haven’t passed my articles because I don’t have the courage yet. Mom keeps on texting and telling me that I should lubricate my machines and write as soon as possible but confidence isn’t cooperating :(

Thanks for reading and I hope you’re doing great. Wish me luck!

August 17, 2014| 16 Notes

Some people ask me, how am I?

Well, I am currently enclosed in a four steel-barred bed with no enclosing apparatus, lying pronely in a 7 inch-thick mattress bed with a hair that dances languidly caused by this onomatopoeia-cally speaking helicopter-like Mikata propeller. I am as angry as my Mother because my keyboard is as shitty as my HS Math teacher, I am as hungry as a Grizzly bear and plans to eat the one who’s reading this, currently trapped in a motherfugging past that serves as a catalyst of this crazy and nonsense heartache and concentrating seriously in enhancing my nephilim skills.

Hahahaha weirdo me is weirdo. I am in my dorm room now here in QC coz I’ll have my Orsem tomorrow. Am I excited? naaah.

June 17, 2014| 15 Notes

Searching for the facebook and twitter accounts of those names printed in the list of medical technology entrance examination passer in tua at this moment hihihi. I’m just curious ‘bout how they look bc these faces will be the faces that I’ll be seeing next semester. And maybe I can befriend them as early as today haaha waht. Oh shoot! Wait … why am I doing this? There’s no guarantee yet that I’ll start as a freshman again and there’s no surety thus far that I’ll study there bc hello I am not taking entrance exam yet so why bother? But … I just can’t hide my excitement. I’m just curious and and and okay okay you win *sigh*

January 30, 2014| 7 Notes