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HI GUYS!!!! Oh my, it’s been a looooooong while. I actually went through my blog and re-read everything and I’ve noticed that I was always saying how “I don’t know what to and how to do blogging anymore” in most of my previous posts but I PROMISE THIS TIME, I LEGIT DON’T KNOW WHAT TO WRITE OR HOW DO I DO THIS ANYMORE because I haven’t done this for like forever. It felt like I’m starting again!!! Okay sige, I’m not gonna babble more. Let’s just hop right into my post.

Okay, so as what I’ve mentioned on my previous posts, I’ve entered Third Year or the Medtech proper last school year 2016-2017 and that’s (also) the reason why I was gone for a very long time. Idk, I just found myself being swallowed by acads and all that jazz that I never really had the time to write a single blogpost. There’s so much that has happened in my entire Third Year life and I wish I could’ve had written any of’em and immortalize the memories on this blog and hark back to those times… but sadly, I didn’t. Anyway, as you can probably tell on the title, this post would be a “rundown” of my experience as a Third Year Medical Technology student.

(Wait, how do I start?)

We started the school year earlier than the normal students in our university due to the reason that we were trying to chase the schedule for the 1-year internship so everything would fit and we would end just right on time for the graduation (yikes chills) because as you all know, we are one of those pabibo schools who embraced the academic calendar shift. So the clinical subjects I took this year are as follows:

1st Semester
MIC111 – Bacteriology
PAR100 – Clinical Parasitology
GPHC100 – General Pathology, Histopathology and Cytopathology
CC111 – Routine Clinical Chemistry
HEMA111 – Hematology 1
MTLBE100 – Medical Technology Laws and Bioethics
LMS100 – Laboratory Management and Supervision

2^nd Semester
MIC112 – Mycology and Virology
UBF100 – Urinalysis and Body Fluids (Clinical Microscopy)
HEMA112 – Hematology 2
SIM100 – Serology and Immunology
CC112 – Continuation of CC1/ Special Chemistry
CC113 – Endocrinology, Toxicology and Drug Testing
IMH100 – Immunohematology (Blood Banking and Transfusion Medicine)

I can’t believe I already passed all these subjects let alone the first sem subjects!!!! Personally, I think First semester is harder than the Second Semester idk maybe because it’s the time when we were just and still adapting to the new and toxic environment of Third Year life and the transition is quite overwhelming. Also, the passing rate was raised from 60% in Second Year to 70% in Third Year. I CAN’T EVEN!!! Plus the laboratory practical exams had an upgrade to like 5x that of the Second Year pracs. There’s legit a time when I went back to my dorm during lunch break just to cry because of a practical exam and a fair share of tears were shed at nights when I have no idea how to fit and finish everything before the sunrise. Also there’s a day when, for the first time in my life, I called my mom after I got back in my dorm from school and cried for my dear life because EVERYTHING WAS SO HARD.

It’s also during First Semester when I learned how essential it is to know the time difference from night (let’s say 7pm) to 5am the next day and how to utilize it very well because your life literally depends on how you manage and distribute it to sleeping and studying because you know, you’ll only have to read 1-3 chapters per subject and you only have like 3 quizzes the next day for the lecture and probably a practical exam or a long quiz for the laboratory in the afternoon. JUST HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO PREPARE FOR THAT IN LESS THAN 10HRS???— is all I was thinking then. That’s how resentful and pitiful I was back then.

We were taught the laboratory skills we need— Venipuncture (of course! the freaking highlight and a must), Blood Smearing, Staining, Pipetting!! Oh God forbid, I loathe glass pipetting so much! Direct Fecal Smear… and all medtech-y skills. I love Bacteriology so much. It was the subject I got the highest grade during First Semester. The lecture and laboratory were both the bomb.com. But ofc, I wouldn’t forget the anxiety the Unknown has given us. For our finals in the lab, we were given unknown organisms and we were to identify it via Biochemical Testing and everything we were taught of on how to identify such. It took me so long to decide what my organism was because some of the biochemical test results weren’t at par with theoretical information so imagine my anguish. Our grades basically depended on it so… yeah.

but in the end, I decided it was Enterobacter cloacae.

Another memory from First Semester is the time when we were to submit Enterobius swabs as additional points for our Parasitology laboratory. I took my bestfriend with me to hunt down possible patients. It was such a memorable experience, I have no more words. I poured all the feels on this Facebook post.

Also, I’ll never forget about First Semester is the day when we had our Grand Practical Exam in our laboratory subjects and it was the time when 3^rd Floor HSC was in a total dishevelment. We were taking turns and rotating in different labs to have our moving practical exams simultaneously— one section is having their Histopath moving pracs, the other is having their Bacte moving pracs, then another section is on the roil in Hematology moving pracs while the other one is having their Parasitology Moving Pracs and the like. That was the most intense day ever imaginable.

Also on that day, was the first time I was able to extract blood on a practical exam!!! I can never forget how stupid I may have looked for shouting “Hala may dugo” when blood oozed out from my partner’s vein. I was never able to bleed my partner in almost all the practicals we had due to my infamous phobia with needles and I was legit surprised and awed when a blood came out that day!!!

For the events of Second Semester… I’m not really sure?? lol even though it’s the more recent semester, I can’t remember much from it coz it went like a blur to me. It was so fast it was so unreal that it actually happened!!! (and that I passed!)

Okay. One thing I could say about Second Semester is that I fancy UBF hahahaha I’m not sure if it’s the subject itself or teacher factor hahahaha but to be honest, it was so fun to study and probably the easiest of the panel of subjects for second semester (or so I thought).

The laboratory learning and insights this semester gave me more of the medtech feels because most of the experiments/tests we did in the lab were the ones that are being performed in the actual laboratory setting. I will never forget the struggle of dilution in Serology lab. We aren’t allowed to use calculators during the entire semester and of course as someone who absolutely hates math and computation, that’s. the. worst. nightmare. ever. So given that situation, imagine our surprise during the Final Laboratory Written examination when our instructor finally allowed us to use calculator. Everybody in the class was in awe because that’s super unexpected. We didn’t have much of moving practical exams this sem compared to the numerous ones we had on first semester. The practical exams this time were more like skills-based and principle application. Slide identification-kind-of-moving practicals was surprisingly nakakamiss.

Self-pity time: Two semester have passed and no one was able to extract blood from me huhuhu do I even have veins??? :——(

Just to give you some insight, there are:

4 major examinations in each lecture subjects
2 major written examination in each laboratory subjects
(100-item identification)
Moving Practical Exam in each laboratory subjects
Skills/Application Practical Exam in each laboratory subjects
Pre and post quizzes in every meeting in each lecture subjects
Pre and post quizzes in every laboratory experiments
Long Quizzes every after chapter
Long Quizzes before major examination in each lecture subject
Long Quizzes before major examination in each laboratory subjects
Surprise quizzes whenever the professor would like
Not to mention the drawings of each specimen in laboratory manuals in each laboratory subject
2 Journal readings in each lecture subject

So ayun, hindi po kami OA and nag-iinarte. Our lives literally revolve in exams and quizzes.

Moving on, last May 09, we had our Pre-Internship Program which is a prerequisite before you can proceed to the actual internship. On that exact day,we took a 700-item Diagnostic Examination without any notice and I literally just came back from an 8-hour trip because I went home in Bicol so I was sitting for like 14 hours straight!!! We had series of practical examinations for two weeks, a Phlebotomy seminar with BD Philippines, a tour in a National Reference Laboratory which is the National Kidney Institute and an Oral Revalida.

CAUTION: Photospam ahead.

I’m not sure if this is enough to summarize everything because I can feel that it’s not even in the slightest bit justified on this post. Maybe it’s one of the wonders of life that cannot be really put into words. (But you tried, self what are you doing hahaha)

Suffice to say that all these experiences; the nerve-racking and heartbreaking quizzes, no-sleep days, tears, sweats, blood (hahahaha legit), cramming moments and all other hardships are the variables which played significant roles in this endeavour which lead me to where I am heading right now. I’m so happy and proud to share to you guys the next step I’m taking in this career path. I am now officially a Medical Technology Intern at St. Luke’s Medical Center – Quezon City under the Institute of Pathology. I know, I can’t believe it myself that I was able to pass through the needle-hole like hurdle you call “Third Year life”. SLMC is actually my first-in since we are to undergo 1-year internship and we will be having our second-in next semester in another hospital.

I will be forever thankful to Trinity University of Asia especially to Dean Rodriguez for always making sure that the quality of education/ training is there. Thank you for a super hands-on laboratory experience and our very own DIagnostic Laboratory in the 4th Floor. It’s like a simulation of the environment that we will be facing in the near future. Would also like to thank our Clinical Instructors:

Mam Majo Liao
Sir Jude Anthony Trinidad
Dra. Mary Anne Isip
Sir Mark Francisco
Sir Mel Destacamento
Mam Gigi Dayrit
Mam Violie Bascao
Mam Suzzette Lumanga
Mam Rona Gonzaga
Sir Joshua Descamparado
Sir Nikko Onate
Mam Krystal Tio

for gearing us up with all the lectures, wisdom and skills that we would need to be the Medical Technologists that we are aiming to be.

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Other significant life events during the course of Third Year life:

I became an Altar Server at the Shrine of Jesus the Divine Word. Hashtag dream come true.

I was elected Medical Technology Councilor in the University Student Council. Hashtag unreal.

All glory and praise to the Lord God above. Thank you for guiding me in almost everything I do. Thank you also St. Jude Thaddeus for interceding for me. Forever grateful and blessed.

That’s pretty much how I can sum up my Third Year life. I hope you enjoy reading as much as I enjoyed writing it! Thank you so much for reading yet another long blog post of mine. See you on my next post (hopefully there’s a next)!!!

May 26, 2017| 37 Notes

History-Buff-Self Travel Diaries: INTRAMUROS

Hey hey hey what’s up what’s up?

So yesterday, Ayra, ate Maricor, Irish and I went to Intramuros impulsively. I swear we didn’t plan it. Our original plan was to go to Divisoria and do a hoarding but I guess, miracle had other plans for us. It was a total exploration because we were very alien as to how we were going to reach Intramuros. Thank God, he made the art of inquiry possible so we were guided accordingly.

We reached Intramuros at around 2pm, I believe. The first thing we saw was a ruins of an old building in the middle of the busy street and it was so pretty. Then, my eyes went wide and clear all of a sudden because I SAW THE FREAKING PALACIO DEL GOBERNADOR!!! I swear my jaw dropped literally. I’ve been wanting to see this in real life because who don’t? it’s the palacio del gobernador for Emilio Aguinaldo’s sake!!! I’ve already pictured it would be beautiful but I swear the minute I saw it, the body of history books I read didn’t give enough justice in describing the magical place. I was so pumped especially when we got to enter the Fort Santiago. Everything was so perfect I was totally unstable in the inside.

There are lots of attraction inside the Fort Santiago but I wasn’t able to memorize ‘em all because I was so focused on appreciating the history behind every structure; thinking what has happened at that same exact moment on that place years ago. There are human-sized statues of Rizal around and one of it scared me to death. I was lurking alone and my friends were at the other side then when I look at my back, I saw someone. And I squealed. I really thought it was a person, a ghost even! But I then realized it was just Rizal.

There was a shrine for Rizal and I am by no means a big fan of him but I really got goosebumps in there and was totally awed. There was an audio-visual something upstairs just like in Anne Frank’s house (nope, I haven’t been there yet, I just know). Then a museum of Rizal’s awesome history and memorabilia. There was a piece of Rizal’s spine in there (the 5th photo below) and a room which basically lulls Rizal’s body of works.

I can’t even fathom the feeling I had. Everything is so perfect and ancient and divine. You guys know how much I love history so this is definitely a major event for me in my whole existence.

I decided not to post an entire tour because that would just kill the fun and I want you all to have first hand experience plus these photos didn’t do any justice to the real thing. I encourage you all to visit the place and see it with your bare eyes.

And look, we had a quirky photo with one of the guardia-sibils.

Thanks to these amazing people for sharing this wonderful experience with me. You made it extra special and fun!

Before I end this post, I’d like to leave you all a nice note which you may or may not bring with you when you go visit Intramuros. Let’s all remember that this whole place isn’t just a scenery, this is Philippine History. Thanks for reading and see you on my next post!

February 05, 2016| 19 Notes

#IDoItTwiceAWeek

Hello sunshines, guess who’s back??? ME.

Soooo, I went back to school last August 03 and like what I told you guys before, I acquired the schedule of a regular student and oh boy, I can’t feel life anymore! It’s very very very different compared to the life I had on my previous semesters and I wish I could at least taste the sweetness of it for a sec again because my sched this semester is gradually killing me. Thanks to everyday recitations, pre and post quizzes, I barely have time for sleep. Breaks between classes are useless because you need to utilize it to review for the next subject. REST. WHERE CAN I BUY REST, ANYONE?

Being a college student could be really stressful at times especially for students like me who signed their life up to the hell called “medicine” ~~hehehe just kidding~~. But seriously, being a premed/medtech student is tiring and I’m just a second year student :((( Studying until 3 am seems not enough time to prepare for all the subjects I have. I remember one time during our anatomy class, I told my groupmate I don’t think I can last any longer. She said the feeling is strongly mutual and just told each other we need not to give up for us to achieve our dreams ~~weh~~

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September 16, 2015| 7 Notes

15 days more and I’m leaving again. Honestly though, it doesn’t feel like three months at all. Gosh, I didn’t do anything sensible! All I did was sleep, read and eat … that surely didn’t make me a better earthling. I’m so disappointed because everything didn’t go according to what I thought things would turn. I can’t believe I let three months slip that easily. I thought I’d be able to divide my summer vacation/ time properly — equally distributed to advanced reading, losing pounds, thinning my huge TBR pile, fangirling, blogging and my responsibilities in this house. Well, as it seems, I only succeeded in the fangirling area … completely ignoring other agenda. Oh the things reading Harry Styles fanfictions can do lol.

I’m still not over with the fact that I didn’t get to Dean’s List. I’m almost there though. Just one point away. Thanks to Chemistry, I failed. My mom told me not to get too upset about my 2.25 because it’s not a failing grade but I can’t. For me, it’s as if my 84 is a freaking singko. Oh good heavens. Why can’t I be as intelligent as my mom? :(
Well, I actually got to do something productive after all. I LEARNED HOW TO COOK!!! Well for starters, to fry. My first experience was to fry fries. It’s cool though. Very very cool. That was my first time to be in the kitchen… not waiting for the time the food will be done but to cook. To be completely honest with you guys, I do not know how to cook rice… not until this vacation. It’s disgusting because I only knew how to cook edible rice at the age 19. I am happy as well because I finally did it. After learning how to fry, I found myself enjoying it like you can’t see me not frying at least twice a week. I always volunteer to do the frying because it makes me feel like a master chef. At least, that’s what I thought.
Did I already mention that I painted my room pink? Well it looks dashing. I still have my white walls tho. I only painted the bed frame, the closet and my study. Unlike before, it looks like the room has a life. I also made a little fandom wall right under my overhead bookshelf. I hope to Harry Styles, my niece wont lay a single finger on it when I leave for school.
I always thought it’s necessary to at least have a minimum of 5 people with you when going to a carnival to assure fun but I proved myself wrong. I went there with Marichris and Karl (plus Fermo) and we freaking squealed our lungs out out of fun. Then, I went there with my bestfriend Jaymar. I thought it would be boring considering our number but being the amazing us, we found fun in a hopeless place (whuut). Dude, that Ferris Wheel and Viking rides took my soul and made me realize that the Physics lessons I had back then were all real. Indeed, quality over quantity.
To my dismay, I haven’t even made it to the half of my TBR pile. Spent most of my time reading Harry fanfictions. I think I finished 30 fics already. Insane but huh, can’t help it :(
Clearly, I am not very updated with trends or new stuff so when my bestfriend mentioned something about a song Flashlight, I do not have a single idea about what the fuck he’s saying. Days after that, I decided to search for it. So I did and I listened to it. That’s when I realized my friend here, got some good jams. Damn did it sound so good! It feels like it was written for me. Whenever I listen to it, it’s like I’m brought to my dark days again. I can’t believe it’s been ages since I’ve been in it. As I hark back, I realize that I’m almost three years clean and that’s just, wow! Every word struck me right in the feels. Only that, I do not know who was my flashlight back then who lit my world to see the sweet life. Anyway, this song’s perfect. Really. Thanks for introducing this to me, sizzums!
So we went to Kuya Harold’s Recognition last week and that was one happy moment. I was able to watch a Civic Military Parade again, or at least something like that. I dunno how’s it called during that sort of ceremony though. I’m so happy for him because he finally reached his dreams. Honestly, I’m not really included in the plan. My father just asked me half-joking if I wanted to come, an hour before we left. I don’t have anything to do and I really want to be there at one of my cousin’s milestones so I said yes. Besides, it’s been ages since I went to Legazpi. It’s time to pay some visit tho. Like what I said, I wasn’t part of the plan. I hope me wearing a jersey at a formal ceremony is enough to explain my case of being ‘ just an excess baggage’. (And nope, that’s not mom and dad)
Last July 12, my niece celebrated her 3rd birthday. Since she didn’t have a nice celebration last year because me and mom left Bicol because around that time was the start of my classes so I made sure this year, she’ll have a good one. I took care of the cake and the balloons. Yes, I know. I’m such an amazing aunt. I love her so much and I’m bound to spoil her until she grow up.
“Wag magsalita ng tapos”. Indeed, man, indeed. As what I’ve said few months back, I am limiting myself into liking no one from the band but Harry Styles. Only him — said that I have no plans on worshipping the entire band but lookie here … looks like the 1D fandom got another addition. But to make myself clear, I am nowhere as near as you, old 1D fans and I am not really claiming that/ like I know the lads like the back of my hands or like how you guys do. But I can catch up pretty well *grins like a Cheshire cat*. My family’s again, surprised because I introduced another boyfriend of mine to them. They all took it nicely and they were quite supportive. Knowing that their daughter fancies the world’s largest boyband, they seemed anxious and baffled with the expenses I am bound to have in the name of my love for Harry and the lads. They’re not very supportive with this matter, saying it’s a waste of money and all that jazz. I actually told them it’s about time to start saving up for their next concert here because the price ranges up and maybe over 20k and my mom sure gave a fit. I told her to calm down because that’ll surely happen years from now and no one’s stopping me this time.
Anyway, I actually enjoy doing the dishes now because of them. I tend to shut the world down by listening to three of their albums (Four, Take Me Home and Midnight Memories) whilst doing the godforsaken chore. They really have a nice music and I found my jam. Seriously though, if I was a fan during/since high school, as SGO President, there’s no way anyone can stop me from blasting every school occassion with 1D songs.
Recently, I’ve been telling my mom my interest about the exchange program thing and surprise, surprise! she hasn’t said anything that will oppose the whole idea… yet. I’ve been babbling about UCLA a lot and idk why. Yale and Brown Universities are my dream schools abroad so I don’t know why UCLA suddenly surfaced. Lol as if my brain can actually afford Ivy League hahahaha

While in the midst of my vacation, I started feeling the usual annoyance I felt when I was in highschool. You know, I was never a good and diligent daughter so I hate it whenever my mom calls for my precious name to do house chores. But instead of flipping (like I normally do), I savoured it. Because I know, I’ll miss it when I leave for school. Too much drama hahaha

I’m really nervous for school tho. I acquired a schedule of a regular student this semester and I really hate it. I hate it so much! If only there’s a possibility that I’d be an irreg forever, my sched wouldn’t be as shit as what I have right now.

I am so stoked for school but I don’t wanna leave my home… my family. ~~Even my bed here~~. It’s like I’m restarting again … like it’s my first time to leave for school. My father will leave as well on August 1^st. Sad but true, his vacation is shorter than me and that we need to wait for one year and a half to see him again.

That’s it, that’s it! I hope you guys are doing great and actually being so productive unlike me who’s been mopping over Harry Styles for three months now. xx

July 17, 2015| 17 Notes

“Ang saklap siguro nun noh, na sa loob ng apat na taon mo sa college, wala ka man lang nabuong circle of friends”

“Mag-isa kang pupunta sa canteen, sa mga activity …”

“Ang saklap siguro maging loner … gaya niya”

These were the exact words I heard being discussed literally behind my back by some school mean girls wannabe who possess nothing but fake blondes and empty brains … girls who happened to be my former General Psychology classmates.

The moment they said those words, I was completely taken aback because it struck me right in the feels. I was offended. I was hurt. Don’t get me wrong, I am completely aware that I am a loner and I’m telling you, I’m a loner by choice but it hurts when people think that just because you’re alone, it’s as if you’re living your life in hell. It hurts when some people look at someone’s aloneness as a deficiency. I know for sure, it was me whom they were talking about because I’m the only loner in the line that time. I proved I was the hot issue when I was walking along the patio and one girl from that circle of friends called her friend then pointed at me and laughed as if I didn’t see them with my peripheral vision.

I, myself believe in the principle of not letting other people’s words come into your mind and ruin you. But everything has limits … including our feelings. No matter how tough you are, there will always be a part somewhere in your anatomy where your weakest point lies – where you are mostly vulnerable at that once jabbed and broken, you can’t control the outburst. And that’s when my numbness meter exceeded its limit; their words have filled my mind and I felt smaller, I felt insecure, I felt lonely and it feels like I was betrayed by my own life principle and became anxious if I am living my life incorrectly – that I was rather really a loser, like the way they look at me.

Just as when you thought you’re already sinking in the deepest of the Marianas Trench, a rescue team’s apparently up aboard ready to save you from drowning. In this case, these people are my rescue team.

Pau, Sonjul and Busra - Despite our differences, they still managed to put up with me and my grade-conscious-self. They treated me like I’m also a human – their never ending how are you? everytime we see each others around the campus, even it’s just a normal greeting, gave such huge warming in my heart. I don’t like attention but acknowledgement like this really makes me happy. Our group wouldn’t receive the Best in Baby Thesis Manuscript award if we weren’t us as a group. Although they didn’t do much in the writing, their support was like the ink of my pen. It was a section/block with some of the country’s showbiz personalities and models, for some wallflower like me, I would’ve melted for feeling small but Pau, Sonjul and Busra made me feel like I am not alone … that there’s no need to feel little because in reality, I’m far from that.
D – her real name is Danika but she introduced herself as D so bring it on! As an irregular student, I didn’t bother talking to other students because I just love being alone but she kept on talking to me and sooner, the walls I built was broken. She’s also a transferee so we both share the same feels … maybe that’s the reason why we clicked. In a classroom full of medtech students who seems “unreachable”, like what we both feel to our classmates … she also managed to make me feel like I am not alone. That we are both enclosed in the walls I supposed to build everytime. I wouldn’t forget the day when it was my report and she’s cheering me like she’s my bestfriend. I ‘awwwd’ a million of times because that was so touching and not a normal thing to happen to me.
Aileen, CJ, Ai and Maki – and these were the most awesome peeps I’ve ever met in TUA. Their personality were so genuine especially Aileen (or maybe because her name’s like my bestfriend’s? lol) but really, she’s the nicest. They were educ students and like what I told you guys before, I was enrolled in 1ED01 for three subjects so yeah. Never did I think of having friends in this block because first, I’m an irreg from the main campus and second, I’m not friendly. With them, I am slightly ME … I laugh hard, talk slightly too much and crack pranks and jokes with them which I don’t do in the other sections I’m enrolled to. Maki hugged me for a couple of times and although I feel awkward being hugged, it’s overwhelming because that’s a first. Seriously though, if I were to choose a set of classmates, I, without second thoughts, will choose them.

They are not my circle of friends but I want to thank them because somehow, they let me feel the joy of having someone’s company. They made me feel like once in my life, I wasn’t a loner … that I am capable of building connections with other people. They made me feel like I was really a “someone” not “something” which they can just use for personal intentions. My life lives an irony. I love being alone but I don’t want to feel alone.

Yes, I’m a loner and guess what, I’m proud of it. I don’t have a circle of friends and guess what, I’m proud of it. I’m proud because I stood on my own pair of feet. I’m proud because I finished this semester with nice grades all by myself. I’m proud because I didn’t have friends to ask for the answers in the homework. I’m proud because I didn’t have cheatbuddies. I’m so proud because I deserve the grades I received because it’s all me, myself and I who worked for it.

May 19, 2015| 8 Notes

RANDOM PHOTODUMP + LIFE UPDATE

Hello sunshines! I’d really want to say sorry for not updating as frequent as what I promised. I am so sorry, really. You know, I didn’t only break my promise to you guys but to myself as well. Anyways, I’m here! That’s what matters now, right? Okay, enough with this introduction crap.

Last April 26 was the last day of our final examinations and was also the last day of the Second Semester. GUYS, FINALLY I FINISHED ONE YEAR! I already mentioned this before that I was a ‘supposedly second year college student’ this academic year but since I didn’t get to enrol for second sem last year and I transferred to another university, I was a first year once again. Nevertheless, I’M DONE WITH FIRST YEAR COLLEGE STAGE. I AM SECOND YEAR NEXT SEM AND IT FEELS SO GLORIOUS TO TAKE ANOTHER STEP TOWARDS MY AMBITION.

On a lighter note, a part of me feels so sad because my original batchmates are incoming Third Year students this June and you guys know what that means? … white uniform!!! I am so so so jealous :(
The second picture really sums up my college life so far. Not only because I’m a medtech student but because that’s that. It’s true that in order to survive school, you need to give a part of yourself or worse, your whole-self. In my case, I gave everything just to yield the best grades. I want to repay my parents for all the money I wasted in my former school. Until now, I feel so guilty for not taking my semester in USI seriously. So this semester, I really burned the midnight oil. My subjects weren’t even that toxic yet but it almost ate me. How much of my being would school eat when the time that my subjects become more difficult then? (Disclaimer: photo not mine)
I am really disappointed with myself because I didn’t get to study hard for final examinations. I am so frustrated because I allowed myself to be distracted by someone who will never know I ever existed. I’m so disappointed because I spent my time reading a Harry Styles fanfiction and ‘instant fangirling upon discovery’ instead of memorizing the process of Titration… instead of practicing Symbolic Logic… instead of reviewing properly. Not that I am blaming Hazza, I love him but the time he got me swooned was a brilliant story of wrong timing. But what’s done is done and I am now a newly born Harry girl. I’m just wishing that Haz’s dimples bring good fortune and won’t let me receive a grade lower than 2 *cross fingers*
Last April 30, me and my mother went to Naga City. She had some business to do in there and I thought it’s nice to visit the place so I went with her. I was so nostalgic with my freshman college days. I visited my former school, Universidad de Sta. Isabel because I thought my friends have summer classes. Sadly, my attempt to surprise them was a complete failure because my friends already took Biostat which means they don’t have summer classes any more so I ended up strolling around. Well, not really around because I didn’t go past SCL Building. I miss USI so much. Sometimes, I regret transferring to another school. You know, me and my friends there made a little pact that we will walk down the Winding Stairs altogether. The stairs was like the Arc something in UST where if you walk through it, there’s a myth that you won’t graduate or something (or the debar thing?), same goes with USI but it’s not yet official … official in a way that there is a ceremony like the freshmen walk in UST. You’ll only take the stairs during graduation. So obviously, I broke the pact and I won’t experience the glory of the winding stairs because 1) I am no longer an Isabelina 2) they will graduate earlier than I because they’re one year ahead. But then, a quick snap brings me to reality – I transferred because it’s not my dream university … not that TUA is my dream university but it kinda sufficed. (Oh great, now the heartbreak of not getting in SLU’s back)

I thought of visiting my boarding house there but I was reminded how much of a hideous bitch were my housemates there so I didn’t. Yep, you read it right. I also lived in a boarding house because Naga was (almost) 2-hour drive away from my folks’ house.
Same day when we went to Naga, I, my mother, her colleague and daughter had a snack at Rai Rai Ken. It was my first time there because I’m a forever patron of Jollibee, Mcdo and KFC. I am clueless as to what to eat so I just had my mother choose for me. She got me a ramen and I heard of ramen from my bff so I didn’t retaliate. It was, again my first time because I am not a fan of eating alien foods I mean foreign (wait, you love siomai to death, how could it be possible that you don’t eat foreign foods?) but yeah, something like that so I was on the edge of my seat, thinking what that food prolly tastes like. It didn’t disappoint my assumption. Ramen tastes so good but not good enough for me to worship it.
And yep, I’m on my summer break. I am currently here in my hometown in Bicol and will be staying here until and before August 3. I am not gonna enrol in the required summer classes for First Year students in TUA because my father’s going home in the country on June and I can’t trade him for two subjects. Originally, summer class is composed of 3 subjects but I already took Phil. History so I only have two subjects left. I think it won’t mess my curriculum … or so I think???
Was really heartbroken with Zouis fight. I made it clear that I am not a directioner because it’s only Harry that I fancies but I was really hurt that their broship already sunk. I didn’t know them for years and I wasn’t able to watch them grow but I’ve been spending my sumvac watching their videos and reading fanfictions because of Harry and I know just the right knowledge about how much the lads have been through together. I am in no position to tell this to Zayn but you don’t do that to your brother, right? Well anyway, let’s just be happy for Zayn because I think he finally achieved his dream … you know, I think it’s quite alright for a normal 22 year-old lad to take a selfie with a greasy burrito using some mac filter??? Hahahaha rude self, rude.

I am yet to love 1D but I grew to love the rest of the lads as the days pass by. I think there’s nothing wrong if I will? … except for my mainstream hater self which probably swears me to death now. I think it’s a perfect timing that I begin to follow the band as four … without Zayn so I won’t feel bad and inferior with other directioners because I missed almost 5 years. I know 1D won’t be the same 1D without Zayn and we can’t erase that. What I am saying is for now, they were starting to flaunt as four so it’s also the hint of my 1D spirit animal’s release – I’m gonna start being a fan of the 1D with four lads.
On that exact same day, my sad vibes was lit by the amazing news from the other side of the globe. The staff had already casted a Clary Fray and she’s so gorgeous. As much as I want Lily Collins to remain as Clary, I am aware how complicated it is so I’m really really really trying my best to just accept it. And oh, yes you read it right. The Mortal Instruments is finally franchised into a TV Series and it is now called Shadowhunters. It’s a massive dream come true for me and I really cried when I heard the news. I was disappointed with the actor Jace because 1) he’s not Jamie Campbell-Bower 2) he tweeted Kat, the actress Clary something like “let’s protect the human world from downworlders” like wtf? You’re not killing Magnus and Luke are you? I know it’s a simple thing but for me it’s not. He should’ve read the series first or at least the City of Bones. You are Jace, what are you doing with your life? No shit, this was really a big deal for me.

Jamie, Lily and Robert will be my forever Jace, Clary and Simon. As much as I’m so hyped with TMI being a TV series, I’m equally sad because they aren’t the actors I’d be seeing to give life to the series that has a huge space in my heart anymore. I’m so sorry guys. I know the staff won’t choose an actor who isn’t good but Jamie, Lily and Robert were the best.
I’ve been dreading for years to create one since I want to retweet every bouts of my faves but I don’t want to flood my (main) account with endless RTs so I finally made a separate fan account on Twitter. Also, I made a reblog blog. Same reason with Twitter, I want to reblog things and I don’t want this blog to flood you guys. I’m aware these accounts were lame but it would mean a lot if you’d follow them.

Twitter Fan Account | Tumblr Reblog Blog

Aaahh finally, I’m done talking. I’m not sure when (and what) my next post will be because we still don’t have our internet connection back. Pocket wifi is no fun and I am running out of bucks. So just stay tuned. Anyway, I want to thank everyone who keeps on reading my blog even though this is a huge sort of crap in the internet. This will be the first time that I’m doing this but you guys can reach me through my other social networking sites and get updated with my pointless whereabouts (wow feeling legit blogger). Thank you so much guys and have a wonderful summer! ;)))

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PS: I am mostly active on Twitter.

May 09, 2015| 21 Notes

Some of you were pretty much aware that yours truly is a huge history buff, both literally and figuratively. I have this imaginary bucket list only for the needs of my history-buff self. I am so happy to tell you guys that I crossed out one out of no definite number. *laughs* Last Monday, April 20, I went out just to wander. Supposedly, I’d take my Literature final exam that afternoon but my prof told me that the test paper has ran out so I was rescheduled on Wednesday. Actually, I went to Trinoma first, yep out of impulse! I went around to find a gift for my mom for her birthday (which was today, April 28^th). Then, went straight to Gateway since it’s definitely the normal route for going back in E.Rod. I was about to approach the exit when I saw the poster about this exhibit. I’ve been really dreading to visit this since forever but I just don’t have the time and mostly, I keep on forgetting so basically last Monday, I FINALLY DID.

The exhibit’s on the 5th Level of Gateway Mall Cubao. I wasn’t able to find it at first that I had to ask a security guard for directions. It was so breezy at the top especially that a garden will welcome you as you reach the last step of the stairs. I’ve never been inside a gallery as huge as this that’s why I was in a full “woah this is so freaking great” state.

So this is not the first painting you’d see the moment you enter the room. But according to my observation, this is the first painting you should look at. This could be seen at the left side of the door upon entering. This painting literally made me so happy like literally because it’s my first time to see a huge and real image of this. As you see, it’s the representation of Pre-historic Philippines and like all pre-historic history, this is the best symbolism. The whole image gives a lot of meaning but one thing is for sure, beginning. You know, the beginning of civilization, the beginning of writing (techniques), the beginning of literature, the beginning of art and history itself. This is the kind of image what our history books give us, the ones that were found in caves that were solid proofs of civilization at certain circa in that place.

I didn’t take a picture of every painting in the gallery. I know I should have and it was so stupid of me to forget. I don’t know, I lost it. I was really overwhelmed and was in complete bliss that I graced the alley; moved from one painting to another with my soul detached from my body and was sent back to the time of the paintings I was looking at.

Here are some of my snaps. I am completely aware that they all look shitty but hey, you can’t expect a perfect photography from someone whose soul is out time travelling in the majestic yet slowly sinking past, right?

I like this painting so much. You see, feminine power runs in it. The painting reminds me of the article from my Phil History class last semester, the “If Women Are The Best Men In The Philippines – Why Are They Invisible In History?” Sad but true, up until now, we can’t deny the fact that the struggle for feminism is still there.

This painting also got my attention because it speaks about culture and tradition. Also because there’s a representation of my beloved Bicol. Well, there’s Ina and the traslacion up there! Oh, I miss Naga City and my former school and my blockmates there and going home every weekend :(

2019 EDIT: I had to delete whatever I said under this picture. I’m such a Marcos apologist back then, I can’t believe I said all of those!!! How come I got so blinded with the fake history materials I acquired back then to be so thrilled about his era. I’m so ashamed of myself.

Of course, I left a comment where I sent my deepest commendation for the people behind this exhibit. It’s so brilliant. It’s like a time travel … or it’s just me being a history-buff again? Nevertheless, it’s amazing!

That’s it guys! I hope you also find some time to visit the exhibit. I am not sure how long it will last (I hope it’ll be there forever) so hurry and don’t miss your chance to view our beautiful history in a different way.

April 28, 2015| 10 Notes

L I F E L A T E L Y

Last March 10, we went to Brgy.Tatalon, to the adopted community of TUA College of Education for our NSTP. It’s one of a kind experience because I got to teach kids one-on-one. You know, I don’t really have the heart of teaching even though my mom is a teacher and I played like I was a teacher during childhood. It feels different to teach kids who are not related to me. I got to teach Alex and EJ. We taught them how to make picture frames out of popsicle sticks. At first, it was awkward especially with Alex since the girl is as wallflower as I am. But at the latter part, she became participative and she’s the one who put the sticks after I put glue. On the other hand, I enjoyed my time with EJ. He’s so active and a bit shy. I teased him Kokey and he called me fat so I punched him … just kidding! The frame we did is like Alex’s but EJ’s frame got some design and it was like a mini-house. They graduated last Monday and I wasn’t able to come because 1) I wasn’t informed and 2) I have classes. I am so happy I enrolled to 1ED01 in NSTP because again, most of the students taking NSTP in main campus don’t go to the community.
One day last week, I was walking along the patio and came across with this Thursday Jamming at the Students’ Lounge. It was so so cool and I wanna give a thumbs up to the brain who thought of this idea. I can’t believe there are lots of talented Trinitians both in singing and playing the guitar. Sadly, last Thursday was the last jamming for this year, if I am not mistaken. I hope they’d do this again like twice a month because it’s so so cool and it will also give some recognition not just only to the jammers but to the organization as well.
Been buying taho frequently. I miss this so much because this is my childhood. I can still remember how my elder sister and I run like we’re tributes in the 75th Hunger Games just to go out of our house before the man selling taho pass by our place. I think I haven’t eaten this since I was in Grade 5 until last year, when I was still there. Woah, that’s hella long, eh.
Last Thursday, we finished our Unknown Cations Analysis. It was an individual task and we were tasked to identify what cations are present in the unknown solution our professor gave us. We were given an estimate of 5mL of an unknown solution and there are 4 cations in it. At first, I was so nervous because I have a little to no idea about unknown analysis since I got to miss one laboratory due to morning blindness and my lab partner didn’t even bother telling me what is what. She’s in her friends and she even had the nerve to bring our toolbox-which-I-bought-almost-everything in their place. But, I told you guys, solitude is my freaking bestfriend. Working without anyone around you is the best strategy in doing an unknown analysis in chemistry because you’ll get to know everything on your own. Guess what, I was the first one to finish identifying the four cations in the whole class. Could you believe it? I got Sr+, Ca+, Mg+ and Na+.
So I got myself a bus ticket en route to Bicol for this Holy Week. I got it last March 18, way too early for a trip on 31st but Superlines had 31st all-booked, there are few remaining seats but those on the last part of the bus. I wouldn’t take those because surely, seating on the last seat of the bus will be the death of me. I nearly bought a ticket for a trip to Naga just for me to be able to go home but the 31st’s trip to Naga was also and already fully-booked. I was about to go home when I thought of trying to go to DLTB Terminal. When I went to the ticketing booth, I was so nervous because I’m afraid their 31st trip’s already fully-booked but Heaven heard my prayers, it wasn’t. Actually, there are no any reservations yet. I wouldn’t doubt it since DLTB is more expensive than Superlines. It’s my first time to ride DLTB to Bicol and I have no idea if they have a stop-over in Atimonan. My system’s used to Superlines’ Atimonan stop-over like I automatically wake-up when the place is near. Anyways, I’m so excited to be back home after three freaking straight months.
This week has been the busiest week I’ve ever had this whole semester and it’s all because of baby thesis. I did the freaking final thesis manuscript for two days and imagine my fatigue. On Wednesday, me and Pau went to Camp Crame to gather some data. It was so tiring because the camp is so huge and we were passed by office to office. We almost had a round-trip in there. Anyhoo, it was a success since we got the latest statistics of Juvenile Delinquents in the entire Philippines. On Thursday, we asked permission to our professor because we won’t attend our class since we’re going to DSWD and she allowed us. My Fil102 prof also allowed me to ditch her class. So there, we went to Batasan, Quezon City and the trip ate almost all of our time. It wasn’t a success because most of the staff were in Subic, Baguio and Sequoia Hotel for a “seminar” but we gathered some outside sources where we got almost all the data we were supposed to get in DSWD.
We all have this prejudice to policemen; useless human who only bloat and get fat sitting in their offices, always late during crimes and every negative thing but we always commend DSWD because they have the heart in saving every lost souls. Sorry to break your prejudice guys but it was reverse. PNP is very much commendable than DSWD. This is a statement coming from someone who got to enter both of its central offices and again, it’s PNP who got the heart to help lost souls. I was really disappointed with the staff of DSWD Central Office. They were so useless. Don’t get me wrong, you might think I call them useless because we weren’t able to gather data from them but no, that’s not the reason why I called them useless. We entered the office and we were standing in the information desk for like 10 minutes but no one even bothered entertaining us. Worse, there are lots of staff in the area and they saw us, they look at us but they continued chit-chatting like they saw none. The only time we got entertained was when a staff entered the office. Another thing is, why do these people need to be gone during freaking working days just for a freaking “training/seminar”? And why do they need to hold a seminar for two different departments at the same time? They could’ve scheduled it on weekends, right? Or one after another. And why is a training or seminar needs to be conducted in Subic and Baguio? So classy naman for social workers. While in PNP, we were just about to enter the door but you can see that the police assigned in the information desk was already preparing to welcome us. We were directed to different offices but each office gave us an escort. They even had those happy faces and calm voices unlike in DSWD, they have that tone which connotes that it’s our fault that their staff is out for a “seminar”. I’m aware this is just a small matter and is not a big deal but big things start from small things and I think DSWD failed to start doing good things in smaller parameter. Forgive me for this sudden rant but I just want to vent this one.
Swear guys, last week was really crazy especially last Friday. At midnight, I started finishing the manuscript and I fell asleep and woke up 10 minutes late for my morning class which was PE. My mind was really in chaos since the other part tells me to get up and prepare for school but the other half tells me to stay and finish the fcking thesis. In the end, I went to school since we’re practicing for our finals and I can’t miss a spot in the choreo. Then, I ditched my lit class in the afternoon just to finish the baby thesis. I can’t believe I ditched my Literature class. We actually have a scheduled quiz that day but I wasn’t able to take it since I ditched but I asked my prof if I could take the quiz and he said yes. I was also late in our Stat Lab Quiz because I’ve beaten the 5pm deadline of our prof for us to submit the manuscript. The deadline was supposedly the day before Friday but because DSWD’s data were not yet in our hands that time, we asked for an extension and Friday at 5pm’s the longest extension we got.
I am so mad with my two other groupmates. They’re freaking useless and I’m afraid they will pull the group’s grade down because they know nothing. They’re both Turkish nationals and I sound like a racist but I won’t choose any foreigner thesis or group member anymore.
We also had the results in our Philo Semi-Final Exam and surprise, I GOT A PERFECT SCORE. I didn’t expect I’d get a perfect score since I just got a satisfactory grade in our quiz related to the semis exam. I’m so happy because I have the privilege of not taking the final exam since I am exempted. The Symbolic Logic seems so hard and if anachem is equally hard, I’d consider utilizing the benefit of being exempted.
And last week, we had our CSC Elections. I’m quite disappointed because that wasn’t what I expected for a university elections. There’s only one party who ran and to avoid failure of elections, we need to vote yes or no. I know exactly what it feels like to run in a school election and I know the desire for leadership so I voted yes.

That’s pretty much it! If you could notice, I didn’t write an intro because I’ve ran out of words. Besides, my mind is still under the spell of thesis-writing. Monday’s our defense and woop, wish me luck guys! I need it.

Thank you so much for reading! And oh, by the way. Happy Graduation to all the graduates of Batch 2015. Welcome to the university of life. College of reality.

March 29, 2015| 12 Notes

THE VAMPS MIXTAPE

It’s been almost 8 months since I last posted a mixtape and ooooh, I missed making one. So today, I made a new mixtape and I’m sharing it to you guys.

Uhm, so I guess some of you were surprised and wondering why in this world am I talking about a freakin boy band. Yep, a boy band – uhh, that’s pretty analogous to band … wagon and you guys know that I hate bandwagon because I mentioned the intensity of my animosity towards bandwagon for you guys know how many times but this band is an exception. I just heard one of their songs on a random blog here on Tumblr because I did check a blog of someone who followed me and that song played and it was a love at first hear (wait, is that even a thing?) That song didn’t leave my head and I was all gaga over it. I was playing that song on repeat all throughout that night, doing those crazy headbangings and lip syncs and I even shared it to my bestfriend saying he should listen to that song. I thought the spell of the song will sooner leave me after two to three days but it’s already a week and I’m still bewitched. Because of the enchantment that song gave me, I became a fan – but not a vampette yet because I know, I am by no means on the same level as the vampettes yet because I’ve been patronizing them for just a week and some vampettes were vampettes since forever. I don’t even know the band members’ real full names and historical background yet. I don’t feel like claiming I’m a super fan if I’m just a fan. There’s a big difference, right? Yup, we should know where to place ourselves even just in fangirling. I actually downloaded their entire album, Meet The Vamps because after hearing the song I was talking about, I had a gut feeling that they have more songs that are as heavenly as that song and gut feelings don't lie – they do have a lot of eargasm songs.

In this mixtape, are the songs I love most from The Vamps. This is actually in particular order. Can We Dance is the song I was talking about - the song that made me like The Vamps. This song is now a personal favorite because it makes me so happy whenever I hear it and I couldn’t stop doing those crazy headbangs even if I’m outside (well, the headbangs were a bit subtle when I’m in public places). I actually liked their songs because of the melodies, rhythms and beats and that’s my personal criteria on telling if a song is pleasing to hear. I rarely depend on the lyrics - except Christina Grimmie’s and Ed’s. So in this mixtape, I tried my best to pick 10 songs I liked the most from their Meet the Vamps Album.

So here’s the list:

Can We Dance
Another World
Shout About It
Risk It All
She Was The One
Dangerous
Lovestruck
Wild Heart
Fall
Last Night

I had my first attempt on making this mixtape on 8tracks but it only allows two songs per singer because of some legal policies and I thought I wouldn’t be able to share this mixtape. Gladly, some fan accounts uploaded The Vamps’ songs on Soundcloud. And yeah, I was able to share it to y’all.

And only this week, I knew that they already visited Philippines and that broke my heart because I could’ve seen them if I just became a fan earlier. I am not sure if I’ll be a fan for a long time because this is only a love begotten by accident and at the same time, a part of bandwagon and again, my hatred is much more powerful. And this is the first time that I liked a boy band, I swear. I’m actually weirded by myself because I don’t know why I liked them … well, maybe there are songs/bands that has the power to drag your soul into their music that you just can’t say no. But who knows, they might be back soon and if my love for them is still strong and I’m still a fan, then I’ll go watch them live.

Thank you so much for listening and I hope you enjoy this mixtape as much as I do.

Buy their album here.

March 14, 2015| 38 Notes

L I F E L A T E L Y + February Highlights

Hello, hello everyone! Lookie here, someone’s got the time to do another life lately entry huh. Well, this is quite late to say but I’m trynna start my month being productive … in terms of blogging. I noticed that I only post three or less blogposts per month lately and that’s sad because as I explore my archives, I saw there that last year, my minimum posts per month is 20 and now … you were so active back then but what happened, self? ~~school happened!~~ So I’m going to try my best to at least, relive my activeness even just little by little.

So like what the title says, this is a life lately entry wherein I’ll be sharing to you guys the things which made February busy.

Last week, we had our Midterm Examinations and it literally ate me whole. I was really not used with the system yet because you know, unlike last semester, I only had four subjects so basically, I just need to study four subjects but this semester, I need to study seven. I had a hard time studying because goodness gracious, analytical chemistry and philosophy ate almost all the time/hours I was supposed to lend to other subjects. I was so thankful that I belong to 1ED01 in NSTP because we don’t have any exams unlike other blocks especially the medtech blocks where some of my classmates were aggravated with how long their reviewers are in NSTP.

And this week, we had our examination results. So far, my scores were amenable. I am the highest in our English102 exam and supposedly, the highest too in Fil102 but I answered Test IV with numbers and we’re supposed to answer with letters so I got no points on that part which resulted to a loss of 19 points — I ended up being the second highest *sobs real hard because of my stupidity* In my Math102, believe it or not but I am the second to the highest in our exam. I got a 40/50 and our professor didn’t tell us what comes next after the highest score but yesterday, we used our Midterm Exam grades as input data in our Stat Lab Exercise and I saw nothing higher than 40 (or so I think? oh my god I hope my eyes didn’t just see things that aren’t real). And in Lit101, I got 92 which is not bad. But in Philo … don’t laugh guys but I only got 27/50. We didn’t really expect the exam to be that hard since our professor is not as terror as Sir Guevarra (most of my medtech classmates say he’s terror) but the enumeration almost ripped my brain in halves. I can’t believe I’m going to settle for the “at least pasado” thing. No results in Chem105 and CE102 yet.

We also did our Prelim Exam in Fil102 which is the Puppet Show. I was really proud with myself because I was able to throw my shyness away and was assigned to do the opening act and be the narrator. With my small voice, who would have thought I’d be able to do it?
Presenting my safe haven at school. This is where I mostly stay during free-cuts since I usually go home here in my dorm during my free time.
Anyway, I gave my blog a little revamp. I made a new blog banner and to be honest, I just did it randomly. I didn’t have plans on changing my banner but I was looking at random pictures on Google and I got inspired to it. I felt a bit sad though because my old banner’s supposed to celebrate its one year as my banner on April and I changed it before it even reached its anniversary hahaha I also decided to change the font of each sidebar sections title – the categories, current read, blog button, etc. I changed the font into a calligraphy font and adjusted the size a bit bigger. (Base photo not mine)

I also did a theme tweaking … after Tumblr knows how many months. It was also random because I just had the urge to play with pink palette that time but I can’t do it here on my blog because I already established a monochromatic theme here and I am so happy because I have someone’s blog where I can vent my pink craze. It’s at pearltriestoblog. Check it out!

Last February 28, I went to Calamba, Laguna to watch Crazy Beautiful You with my buds Rica. I was supposed to go there before lunch but I woke up at 10 and shit just got real. Good thing, there’s no traffic so I think the trip only lasted for 1 hour. We ate lunch at KFC – talk about being solid KathNiels. The movie was so great and Kathreng and Danilo were superb! Daniel was really really funny and Kathryn’s uggghhh sooo hot! Crazy Beautiful You kinda made our imaginations real … you know, some of the parts there were familiar to us because of tons of KathNiel fanfictions we’ve read and it’s so overwhelming that we saw KathNiel do it. After the movie, we stayed a bit more at SM Calamba and talked about things … lots of things that we lasted until 8 pm. You know guys, we aren’t really this close before and we’re both aware that we both didn’t expect that we will be this close. I guess the saying “kung sino pa ang di mo inaakalang magiging kaibigan mo ang siyang magiging tapat na kaibigan mo” is real.
I also watched Fifty Shades of Grey, finally. After my February 14 attempt, I decided to watch it after everyone is finished. It feels good to own the moment … you know, the moment when there are no fake FSoG fans with you in the cinema anymore. I actually hate the fact that Fifty Shades of Grey became a mainstream and you know how much I hate mainstream. So the fascination was lost. I wasn’t this girl with lots of words to say because-I-watched-the-movie-of-the-first-installment-of-the-trilogy-I-turned-down-during-first-read-and-reread-it-last-year-which-took-me-a-couple-of-midnights-for-two-weeks-to-finish after coming out of the cinema anymore like what I was used to be. Anyway, I loved it. I didn’t notice any changes, they just cut some parts … or not? For my favorite part, I love the flying thru the glider in Georgia and thru Charlie Tango. I was actually under LSS in the song Love Me Like You Do by Ellie Goulding which is one of the soundtracks of FSoG. I’m just a bit sad because the exchange of emails was short and that’s the part I love most in the book. I am not much excited for Darker but I’m so hyped to see Freed ohmygod that’s where the trilogy will show that it isn’t just about sex and dominance and abuse. It was my favorite in the trilogy though.
Immaculate Concepcion Cathedral of Cubao. I attended a mass here last Sunday. Nothing, it was just random. This is the wedding church of DongYan and haha I’m not a fan but I love their wedding. I just find the church so grand and beautiful. While my family and I (in Bicol) were watching their televised wedding, we were wondering where in Cubao was it. And when I came back from Christmas break, the bus I rode passed by this church to avoid traffic in EDSA and the church looked familiar. And then it hit me! I was actually passing by this church since July and I didn’t know it was the wedding church of DongYan until I researched it. I told mom I found the wedding church and told her I went there and she said I should take a selfie. She also said she’ll attend a mass in this church too, soon.
This is random but I found myself being so obsessed with skies. This photo was taken at the facade of ICCC and it’s time for sunset. I find the gradients of the sky in this photo so cool, look at that.
Quiapo Church. I just had a quick stroll with Quiapo Church. I wasn’t able to attend a mass because I was really at Raon that time and just thought of dropping by. I was really anxious while walking towards the church because I’m afraid of all the stories and news I know about Quiapo Church. But I still went inside. It was so huge and there are lots of people inside. I also saw devotees who walk by knees towards the altar. I actually wanted to confess but I don’t know what the red light symbolizes – idk if it means there is someone inside or whatever.
Sudden fascination with skies and churches … was it a good development for someone who is a former non-believer?

That’s it! I am hoping for a productive March ~~for me~~, for all of us. Thank you so much for reading and have a nice day.

March 07, 2015| 18 Notes

TBR Jar Challenge # 1: Read a book with a cover in your fave color

(OMG GUYS THIS IS IT!)

So last February 1st, I posted my TBR Jar Challenge here on my blog – as an indication of my official commitment to book(ish) blogging … and here I am today, sharing my second yet the first legit bookish blogpost I’ve ever written. To be completely honest with you guys, I picked my first (this) challenge last February 1, right after publishing my TBR Jar Challenge blogpost … I’m not as excited as you think, eh *giggles* and I bought the book on February 3rd. I just really really really had some confusions regarding the dates of posting; I was really confused if I should post this before reading or after reading … that’s why this post went overdue. Nonetheless, it’s here!

Before hand, I was really anxious with what am I gonna pick because again, I don’t read books that aren’t from my genre. I was definitely praying that I won’t pick the challenge, read a book with a cover in your fave color but destiny’s so sarcastic … it gave me the challenge I’m super afraid of to be my first challenge. The reason why I am afraid/ I don’t like to pick this challenge ~~yet~~ because of the thing “a cover in your fave color”. It’s not like there’s an existing dystopian thriller book in a pink cover, right? Even just during the time when I was just writing the challenges, I really can’t think of a book to buy if this challenge will be the one I’d pick.

I went to two bookstores to search for a book in pink cover – at NBS Farmers and at the huge NBS adjacent to Gateway Cubao. There I saw a little to no books with pink covers. Most of the books just have touches of pink but there are no books with pure pink covers except the book of Alex Gonzaga and Vern and Verniece’s. I also saw Sophie Kinsella’s book but the only pink is its spine. No offense meant to the fans of these books but I’m not really into these kind of books and these will surely bore me to death. I was really about to give up and just skip this challenge when I thought of going to the huge NBS. Upon reaching its facade, I instantly saw a pink book in the window stand display and ran as fast as I could inside the bookstore to grab it. It was the Love, Rosie book but the movie tie-in cover. Unfortunately, it wasn’t much a pink pink in my eyes and I don’t like movie tie-in covers. I then decided to go upstairs. I went to the YA/ Teen Fiction section and saw this book. The cover was really attractive and aggghh I’m in love. It’s not a pure pink cover but the pink kinda dominated the entire gradienting. Besides, I heard (and read) a lot of good reviews about this and Perkins so might as well try it.

I started reading this amidst the Foundation Week celebration of our university which was two weeks ago but as a natural non-reader of a non-dystopian thriller books, I had a hard time catching the spirit of reading. I was like reading two to three chapters a day and turn it down then read two chapters again the next day … oh nope, I’m not saying this is not interesting, it’s a good book, I swear. I’m just not fond of reading books under this genre so my reading speed’s actually slower than the usual. But when I reached the middle, there I found myself reading late at night … so late at night it’s already morning. I was actually laughing at some parts because the humor was wittily written and ugh, I love that (kind of) writing style.

The story is about Anna, who was sent by her father to a boarding school in an American school in Paris just as when she’s about to finish high school in Atlanta, her hometown. She’s not really in favor with her father’s decision because Atlanta is her home but sooner, she found herself realizing where her true home is.

This book is really cool … and, uhm … romantic? There I said it. I am not much of a sucker for books which has romance as its central theme. I only read a few; John Green, Gayle Forman and Rainbow Rowell precisely but this Anna and the French Kiss made me want to read more of this. The characters were really cool and they each have a colorful description to every personality they have. I also could relate to Anna because I’m also in a boarding school, well not literally a boarding school like in the book but I am studying away from my home. I also learned from this book that a person can have two names or more but in reality, he only has one – it’s the choice of the people surrounding you as to how and what are they gonna call you … in a deeper sense, there are lots of description and different interpretations about you but the truth is, there is only one you. This book also let me travel to the City of Love while enjoying the comfort of my bed. At the same time, I hate this book because it made me want to go to Paris someday and you know, Paris is already overrated because lots of girls treat Paris as their “dream travel destination” with that “I wanna go to Paris someday” and you guys know how much I hate mainstream. This book gave me the urge of having my feet set on the Point Zéro des Routes de France star then make a wish. This kilometer zero thing actually rang a bell … it’s like this word or the entire self of the word had some significance in my past. I don’t know what was it specifically but I have a sole idea; I think it is related to our Scouting subject back then. I actually searched the Kilometer Zero of the Philippines and I’m telling you guys, I AM DEFINITELY GONNA GO THERE.

What I want to see in Paris is the Panthéon, the Cathédrale Notre-Dame de Paris, the Foucault’s pendulum, the Shakespeare & Company and even the SOAP and the Residence Lambert if it does exist *laughs* the whole setting and timing of the story was cool and ugh, I can’t explain how oddly I enjoyed this. Although, the relationships between Anna and everyone in the story were really really complicated in every fiber of the word relationship, the resolution quite did well; half of it was resolved, while the other half remained open … for the readers’ imagination to fill. I also find the title of the book thought provoking. One time, I brought this book with me at school for me to read during free time and my guy classmate laughed and asked me if the book is about the french kiss, literally. I haven’t finished the book yet when he asked me but I just told him it’s some sort of a symbolism for the love found in Paris and the setting is also in Paris – which after finishing the book, I proved partially true.

I like this book. I am so thankful for this challenge because I read outside my comfort zone and I enjoyed it. I think I should try reading more books of this genre. Also, I might consider reading all of Stephanie Perkins’.

But, you know … what I don’t like about pure and non-dystopian romantic stories is the easily-achieved love philosophy like someone will fall in love to someone as quick as a lightning bolt, the girl will fall in love with the boy wherein she’s afraid the boy won’t like her back when in fact, the feeling is mutual; like love will always be easy, will always be requited … I just hate the fact that it’s always like that – the lovers will be lovers until the last page when in reality, not everyone gets the love they deserve to have and not all girls in real world were as pretty as the girls in books for the boys to go head over heels with, it’s making me sick! At least, in dystopian thrillers, love is not the focus. It’s somehow analogous to reality; you’d find love in the hardest possible way HAHAHAHA well of course, these were just purely fictional that’s why I’m sorry if I overstate this matter because I really have lost the consciousness of what is fictional from what is not.

I really enjoyed my free travel to Paris. Thanks to this book and most especially, to this challenge. Ohmygod! I’m picking my next challenge … I wonder what am I gonna pick next.

PS:

Pardon my poor booktography because I’m a newbie hahahaha as you see, I didn’t talk much about the story or even the other characters … as much as I want to share to you guys the feels, I don’t want to spoil anyone because I equally hate the feeling of being spoiled. Thanks for reading and have a nice day!

Read my TBR Jar Challenge here.

March 01, 2015| 15 Notes

As you all know guys – uhm, well, not all of you … but to let y'all know, I’m that kind of pig joke, of person who’s very emotional with everything … even the most basic thing that a human can possess has sentimental value for me. I’m that someone who thinks about what I did yesterday exactly at this moment and cries and re-lives everything that has happened in the earlier chapters of the book(s) I’ve read the moment I reached its end. It feels like everything which I’ve grasped even if it’s small has significant value in my life that’s why, I always find it so hard to forget things by force.

Yesterday, I wandered through my Instagram feed until the beginning of time. I had my account since summer after Third Year HS, I believe and that was on the year 2011 so basically, I was still on that “jeje phase”. I mostly posts everything during that time and by everything, that means EVERYTHING I see in my gallery. Don’t judge guys, I’m still young that time and that’s prolly the prettiest photography during those days for me hahahaha

So I decided to clean my feed and to remove all those jeje and irrelevant pictures. But the fact that everything has sentimental value for me, I really had a hard time choosing what to delete because those were memories and you can’t bring them back. So in the end, I had this idea of deleting all those pictures which I didn’t hesitate to delete and to keep those which I can’t just delete in this post. I really want to keep them all but most of it were not that pleasant to see so I came up saving ten pieces which have significant memories in my past years.

1st picture - STEP Competition, Table Setting. To be honest, I joined this competition when I was in Grade Six but I only posted it when I was in Third Year HS because obviously, that’s only the time when IG came out and when I had my account. This was taken by a film camera (we can’t afford dslr yet that time) and I just captured the photograph using my phone. So my arrangement is nothing compared to the table setting of kids these days but guys, that’s the best a Grade Six pupil in the year 2008 could possibly give. It’s actually a privilege to represent my school, Daet Elementary School because I came from Section 1 and most of the students which were favored to represent the school in such events came from the SPED–which is the star section of each grade level and being one of those few who weren’t from SPED who brought the school’s name was really a blessing for me. I didn’t win but I was 3rd Place, as far as I remember and being 3rd Place in a Division-wide competition was really an achievement. I was also the school’s representative in Slogan-Making Contests during that time (Grade 6) and I remember winning a Hawk Backpack because I won in the contest initiated by the Municipal Government of Daet for Nutrition Month.

2nd picture - Rosary Month, OLLCF. I forgot if this was during my Third Year or Fourth Year HS days but it’s indeed during the Rosary Month. All I remember is … I was an officer of Student Council (not sure if it was when I’m 3rd year when I was SC Secretary or during 4th year when I was the SGO President) and I did the decorating of the altar. I remember bugging Sir Romel to do the skirting while I went to the old MAPEH Room to scavenge for things that can be used as decorations. I found the knitted table cloth thingy, the flower in a vase and that goldy candle holder. Supposedly, only one candle will be lit but I put 2 other candles while no one’s watching and lit them right away before the prayer started so that no one could tell me to remove it. But in the end, nobody asked why there were three candles and that made me feel relieved because I didn’t commit a crime hahaha

3rd picture - MAPEH Practicum, Buwan ng Wika Theme. This was before or amidst the celebration of Buwan ng Wika when I was in Fourth Year. We were tasked to do an Interpretative Dance. I am not much a dancer but I love MAPEH Practicums. I was the leader of our group and I was also the one who choreographed our dance. We used the song Magkaisa by Virna Lisa as our music. I based our steps in one YT video I watched and just did some changes in our steps so that it would match the music and us. For our costumes, I decided to have an all black costume, white hand gloves and just face painted colors red, yellow and blue on our cheeks to depict the national flag. I’m the one who provided our long-sleeve black tops because most of my groupmates doesn’t have those. Luckily, my mom’s school got enough black long-sleeve tops because her studs used it in an interpretative dance. And for the boys, since they didn’t show up frequently during practice, I just assigned them to lift Janine at the end of the dance and I also made a part in the dance where the boys and some of the girls lined up and did something like a CAT Drill, for them to portray soldiers. I borrowed some riffles(?) from Sir Martinez, our ACP Instructor/ Commandant. We actually got the highest score and it was really worth it. Anyway, we had a total of three practicums in MAPEH during our Fourth Year days and I was the leader of all three sets of groups I belong to in each practicum. My groups got the highest grades except for the second practicum which was the one with the Christmas theme. I actually expected it even just right after the grouping because someone I hate ended up in my group and she was so stubborn and she wanted things to go on her own stupid way. I was very strict in my groupmates during practice and her stubbornness just led us in our defeat. You can’t blame me if I’d put the blame to her because dun sa dalawang group ko na hindi siya member, we got the highest score and nung time na kagroup ko siya, we lost. Well, past is past. So let’s just forget that badvibes and I’ll just be happy because nakarma na siya. (Ohmygod, why am I so mean hahaha) Well anyway, I didn’t mean this to tell you that I’m always the leader, that I am the boss and I am the key for our success; I just wanna show how much I love being a leader and choreographer during practicums even though I am not a very good dancer hahahaha what

4th picture - Final Thesis Defense. This was during our Fourth Year HS days when we did our Undergrad Thesis Final Defense. We were the Best in Manuscript and Best in Title Defense when we were Second Year but we lost the pace because of me being busy in SGO. I spent most of my time doing my SGO thing that I forgot to lend time in our manuscript that’s why we weren’t able to submit the manuscript on time. Also, my phone got stolen in the middle of the school year and all our documentations were there. We weren’t awarded as the Best in Manuscript group because again, we weren’t able to pass the manuscript in time. In the end, I decided to add a portion in our hardbound thesis after the Curriculum Vitae where we, my groupmates and I wrote our messages and sentiments about the entire Thesis experience. I think that was the first time in the entire history of our school when a portion like that was done in a hardbound thesis. I should visit the school library sometime when I go home in our province to see if other groups after us got inspired with our idea *giggles*

I miss everything. Our whole thesis journey is very memorable especially during our 2nd year high school days when our adviser’s just around. That moment when she’s very hands-on with us and she’s only the adviser who showed up and stayed until the Title Defense (when we were in Second Year) ended. She’s Mam Cristel Acunin and she’s a faculty member of Nursing Department in our school that time. My aunt was also a member of College of Nursing before and she directed us to Mam Cristel, who happened to be the Best Thesis something of the school during those times and for that, our group was indeed lucky to have her as adviser. But she flew abroad when we were in Third Year but she still kept in touch but things were different when she’s with us physically. Maybe if she’s still there during our Fourth Year HS days, we were still able to maintain the pace. Well, that’s the thing about learning life lessons, you can learn most of it the hard way.

5th picture - Vinzons Escapade. I can’t remember what we did that day at school but after class, we – Yabes, Mjane, Janine, Harvey and I went to Vinzons to watch the Graduation Ceremony of VPHS. It was also during that time when the 400-year old Church behind us caught fire (was it 400? I’m not sure but it’s a hundred + years old). I can’t remember everything but I’m sure I had fun.

6th picture - Recognition Day ‘13. This was during the Recognition Day when we were in Fourth Year. This was actually the first time that I didn’t receive any award of recognition. I lost my place in Top 5 during Third Year and I officially lost my place in Top 10 during Fourth Year. The photo was taken when Harvey, batangbalotngpimples and I were about to go home.

7th picture - Favorite HS Teachers. I took this photo summer after high school. I got these photos of my teachers while the HS Secretary, Mam April was cleaning the cabinets. Me being SGO President (I abuse my power too much ugh I hate myself) and being close to Mam Sexy, I asked for the pictures and she agreed. Most of them left the school when I was just Second Year and I like them all because for me, the Lourdenian spirit was present to each of them compared to the teachers we had when we were in Fourth Year and also the teachers until present.

8th picture - Summer Pupil’s Camp. This was also summer after high school. The SK Chairman, ate Tin asked me to be one of the facilitators for the Summer Pupils’ Camp of the Supreme Pupils’ Government officers of the school in our barangay wherein my mother’s the SPG Adviser. It was actually a fun experience and like what I’ve mentioned before, I don’t have any acquaintances in our barangay and this camp let me experienced being with some of my ka-barangays for a couple of days. I also got to be close with some of my mom’s students and I really had fun.

9th picture - Old dorm room. This was my room before I transferred here in TUA, when I was still studying in my previous university, Universidad de Sta. Isabel. Aaaah, I miss this place :(( yep, I chose not to have a bedframe because I know I’m not staying there for a long time. It was approximately 60 steps away from Ateneo de Naga University that’s why all of my housemates were Ateneans. Gaaahhd, I’m missing this house… I’m missing my old school, my old blockmates…

10th picture - Macho Mo Neng. I posted this just last year when I first watched That’s My Tomboy but this actually happened when I was in Fourth Year HS during our BSP-GSP Encampment. It was a mini-pageant with a twist and with the name Macho Mo Neng at Ganda Mo Toy. Supposedly, our patrol won’t join this because no one, aside from Harvey was qualified to join. But me being the Patrol Leader, I can’t let our patrol miss the points so there… I joined. It was actually just for fun and for the sake of the points. Even though sometime in my life, I became a boy at heart, I never really thought I’d join such kind of thing. I am very much aware that I have no edge against the other contingents by looks considering the fact that I am so fat (the only fat) but I don’t know what’s got into me that I plunged myself into that shameful thing. I actually had a boyfriend that time and that’s really awkward. I really avoided him during the entire show and until now, I don’t know if he watched or not. In the end, I won the title. Could you believe it? Even though this was just for fun, I’m really thankful that not all things were being judged by physical beauty … hooray for having at least, a useful brain :)))

That’s it. Well now, look at me … tears starting to pour in my eyes. I’m really emotional with things like this, y is dat??? It’s really fun to hark back all the things that has happened in the past and at the same time, it’s making me a bit sad because time flies so fast. Ugh, I’ll never get tired retelling all the memories of my wonderful past.

This was really lengthy and if you came this far, thank you so so so much for reading. Have a nice day!

February 25, 2015| 10 Notes

L I F E L A T E L Y

Waddup errbody? It’s been quite a while since I last posted a life lately entry so I thought of posting one.

Last week, our university held its 52nd Foundation Anniversary. It’s a week-long celebration only that we had regular classes on the first three days of the week. On Monday, I was late for my Analytical Chemistry class because my alarm failed to wake me. Good thing, my professor still accepted me in the class, still marked me present and she just told me not to be late again. Another good thing, she only gave a review in Qualitative Ways of Expressing Solutions. I thought they weren’t really serious with having classes on the first day of the Foundation Week but damn, they really were. After our class, I went with some of my anachem classmates to the gymnasium to watch the Cheerdance Competition. I’m not really that proud with my department, College of Medical Technology because I hate the arrogant Academic Adviser lol just kidding, idk they were the last performer, they should’ve done better? Yeah, I know I have no rights to complain because I didn’t contribute anything with it. I still give them a round of applause for winning Third Place. I was partly proud with College of Education who defended their Champion title pretty amazing with that Lady Gaga theme. I feel like I have 50 % rights to be proud with them because dude, I’m enrolled in 1ED01 for three subjects *laughs until fade* The College of Business Administration’s performance which was Fallen 44 inspired was really awe striking and we, my classmates and I had goosebumps after their performance.

Uhm gaiz? do you still remember my crush who happened to be my Gen. Chemistry laboratory seatmate last semester whom I was referring to in this post? Guess what, he’s one of the players of our department for the Basketball event and another guess what … HE WAS NUMBER 4 AND OH MY GOD THAT’S MY GODDAMN BIRTHDAY !!! I wonder why was he number 4 … ~~maybe because it’s my birthday? nah, stop assuming, bitch~~. I was never attracted to chinito-and-sports-junkie-type-of-guy until he came in my life … wait, what?

I only stayed until Tuesday because it’s only until that day when I have classes and I’m not really into this kind of occasions – well, I was during my highschool days. Also, my anxieties attack me real hard and I can’t risk myself just to watch those boring games and pageant. Yeah boring because I don’t know who I am rooting for because I don’t know anyone and I don’t wanna cheer for MedTech because I hate the Academic Adviser (hahaha poor Acad. Adviser, always being blamed) So I just stayed here in my dorm and I finished six KathNiel fanfictions on Wattpad and I also worsened my fucked up sleeping schedule. Real fact: I only use Watty because of KathNiel; to read fanfictions about them. I also picked my first challenge in my TBR Jar Challenge and I also started reading it. Uhm the book … it’s obviously the one shown in the Current Read portion of this blog. I’m not really sure yet when will I post it because I’m still waiting for something so that I can just combine it in one post.

And last Thursday, we continued our Cations Analysis experiment and gaiz, guess what again, WE PRODUCED A PRECIPITATE, FINALLY. My lab partner and I were so hyped and crazy because damn, we produced a precipitate and it’s more than what we expected to have. We’re so lunatic and paranoid that time like one of us stabilizes and tells the other one not to move because we’re afraid we might lose our precipitate once again but of course, I’m aware we’re stupid to think that moving would make it disappear because scientifically speaking, it won’t mix with the solvent just because of an abrupt movement because dude, it’s a precipitate.

And today, I was so pissed with how my decisions escalate in just a blink of an eye. I impulsively decided to watch Fifty Shades of Grey and after I was all dressed-up, I just felt lazy that I don’t wanna go anymore. But in the end, I still went. But the problem is, all cinemas were jam-packed with couples … really? Did they even read it? Uhm yep, I know you can watch it even though you haven’t read it yet but I just don’t understand why FSoG should be watched by a tweetums couple on Valentines Day? … isn’t it awkward? to watch it with your boyfriend? I mean, I read it and the idea of watching it with a male never did cross my mind. Maybe you’ll say that it’s up to you and you just need to be mature and be a smart reader and viewer but idk … it’s just weird and it’s really awkward. I could imagine how awkward would it be to those couples who haven’t read the trilogy – or even the first book yet and still dared to watch it *insert innocent but bitchy giggle here* I realized that maybe it’s best if I’ll just stick with the plan – that is, to watch it with my buddy sprwmngmlnd who inspired me to reread Fifty Shades of Grey last year. Despite this annoying searching in vain for cinemas, I still got goodvibes because I also (saw for the second time) had a quick glimpse with Juan Karlos of The Voice Kids serenading the crowd of TriNoma. Did I already mention that I also have a crush with this kid? *giggles*

Before I forgot, I already have a temporary domain. This was referred to me by Ate Mich of imichyouuu and she also got hers. I decided to use this domain until I found a low-cost “.com” domain because my url is so long and the “.tumblr.com” just made it longer. I hope I could find one before this free domain expires.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY everyone! I hope you all had a blast this day and if not, I hope you still enjoyed it. February 14 is not really a good date for me because that’s when I and hehe broke up (as far as I know, lol it’s unoffical remember?) and it’s two years now but I’m still not completely over him … but I’m happy with my life. It’s my second year of spending Valentines Day without a lover (yikes! this is not me, I’m swear I’m not the one who’s saying this because gahd, this is too corny lol) and honestly, it’s not that bad at all. You just have to love yourself and be happy with what you are and what you have at the moment. I, myself, felt a bit jealous to couples I walked past to today but we all know naman na walang forever kaya hahahaha nalang magbebreak din yang mga yan nah, just kidding guys, I’m wishing more love to couples out there. Spread love ❤️

February 14, 2015| 18 Notes

2014 is leaving in few clock ticks this day and have you ever realized that New Year’s up aboard, waiting to launch? Time flies so damn fast, I can’t even keep pace! 2014, for me, was so far the most tiring and glorious year of my life. Despite all the pitfalls and melancholy-filled days, it’s still the best-est year (aside from my birth year, of course). It’s been the year when I got to acquaint new peeps and got to filter out those who are for keeps. It has also been the year when I met my self-actualized self; it was nice meeting her though. It’s been the year when I overly satisfied my obsessions and fangirl-self through things, may it be big or little. And this was so far the year that finally made me feel that I am worthy of this gift of life, that I am not a useless piece of shit. Before this year ends, I want to write a summary of my life during the reign of 2014. I know this is some sort of mainstream but I wanna give it a whirl. I’ve had this on draft for a long long time and to be honest, I am hesitant to post this because I don’t know if I wrote this properly or if I already wrote everything. I want this to be the kind of post that I can read maybe years from now, at times that I am feeling sad and unlucky or just another ordinary day that I feel like reading it and I’d be able to hark back all the things that I have had this year. It’s a big mess and a bit like a journal entry. But here it is anyway.

1. Seeking for “great perhaps”

This was, I must say, the highlight of my year – deciding to leave my province to study in Manila for a great perhaps. The process wasn’t an easy task. Most of you were pretty much aware of it; my out-of-school status because I didn’t make it to the enrollment for Second Semester last school year and I was, still, in the horns of dilemma that time because I’m still torn between Medicine and Journalism. Of all the things that made my transferring a pain in the ass, this is on top of the list. Second is the university to transfer. I’ve had this posted a couple of months ago, about how frustrated I am that I wasn’t able to transfer in my dream university, St. Louis University, Baguio City because they don’t accept transferees in the College of Medical Laboratory Science. At first, I was so happy because finally, my parents allowed me to study there. They didn’t allow me to enroll there when I was just a fresh highschool grad because of the distance. SLU took a bit long to respond and I was insanely frantic for their response to come but it turned out to be a distressful message. I completely have no idea what to do with my life after that. I’m the kind of person who hates bandwagon and I don’t feel like studying in a place where most people were there so I ended up studying in TUA. Since it’s the university that is not “popular” as you call, but is, still, included in the Top 10 Performing Medical Technology Schools in the Philippines, I chose to be one of their family. Third, is the actual process. The records, documents and requirements needed to be sent and passed, it’s not easy, especially that we were to bring all those things from my province to Manila. Each of us had a share of sacrifice in this sudden change of pace. My parents need to give off more amount of money because studying in Manila is a lot more expensive compared in the province while I was forced by the situation to live everyday without the solace of my family. So far, I’m halfway through meeting the great perhaps I’m seeking. I hope it’s not a false alarm though.

2. Of being friends with solitude

Being a loner is not much an unexpected thing to hear about me. It’s like it’s forever engraved to trail after my name. Studying away from my native land – away from everyone I know and like kinda made me end up being a loner. I’m a loner by choice, not by chance. It doesn’t sound bad to me though. The word “loner” is actually a music to my ears. I have no time for fake friendships and my studies is my priority at the moment. No one actually does the first move to befriend me and I’m not good at it or no one wants me as a friend, maybe that’s why. It may sound preposterous that I have no friends (in Manila) but that’s true. I have plenty of acquaintances but friends, nah. Like what I said before, friends mean more than just a company for me. And being a loner isn’t a bad thing at all. It made me depend on and trust no one but myself.

3.The Fangirl ME

2014 has spoiled my fangirl-self too much. I’ve seen my faves perform live and had a picture with one. Until now, it seems surreal because I never thought I’d be able to meet and see three of them in a time-frame of two consecutive months. I wont forget how I went nuts when I was able to breathe the same air as Christina Grimmie. I’m few yards away from her and I didn’t get to see her up close but I’m still happy I was there during her first visit here in Philippines. It’s a steal actually because it was a free show and surely, on her next visit, it’s going to be a concert. I won’t forget too how glorious that moment was when I got to meet the girl who inspired me so much to play ukulele, Renee Pionso. And last but not the least, I SAW DANIEL PADILLA UP CLOSE! Gahd, I need air. “He’s so handsome” is an understatement. I’ve seen him two times already (during his first concert and when he went to my province during the Meeting de Avance of his tito who ran for the seat of Vice-Governor) but he’s a lot more jaw-dropping up close. I didn’t get to watch the basketball game properly because I was too stunned with his beauty, damn it!

Of course, I wouldn’t forget the night when Rhap Salazar sang/ dedicated me a song when he did a guesting at a local Radio Station. I was reviewing for my midterm exams that time and jezuz! he sang me a song. I melt! He sang Give Me Love by Ed Sheeran, it was my request. And not just that, I was recruited to be one of the Rhaptors admin and I accepted the offer. I already stated all my feels in this post. Actually, I had blogged all three — {Christina Grimmie, Renee Pionso} You might want to check them out! Guess it’s been a lucky year for my fangirl-self. Hoping to have more of these next year!

4. Commitment

Aside from Medicine, the other thing which I signed my life for commitment is to books. Given the situation of being friendless, of lacking a companion in Manila and of being raised as a wallflower bookworm, books somehow contributed as to how and why this year became bearable for me even without a human buddy. Books kinda let me experience travelling beyond borders. Everybody knows that it was the main perks of reading – to travel without you moving to and fro places. Some might think it was boring but no, I wouldn’t exchange the comfort of my bed while I travel to different places. I will always choose to travel to a dystopian New York and underground Chicago or even in Panem than to spend my free hours at Greenbelt or Eastwood where happiness is only limited to those places. I’ve been reading my whole life but this year was way too different from the other years of my reading life. It kinda turned into a dependency this year. I’ve also bought a shit ton of books. Probably because there are plenty of bookstores in my reach compared when I was still in the province.

And just recently, I went to Lang Leav’s Book Signing Event and it was my first time to attend one. I haven’t blogged about it yet but soon, I’ll post it here. It was a fun experience and I’m looking forward to attend more book signing events of my favorite authors.

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December 31, 2014| 18 Notes

Hello guys! I am baaaack! As promised, I am finally blogging my #DestinyTheEvent experience. This is actually two months late already but God’s grace is timely, right? so sharing this would never tire to expiration.

So last October 31, 2014 (see, I told you), the Capital City Alliance Church popularly known as CCAC hosted the #DestinyTheEvent presented by the Friday Night Live and Campus Connect at CCAC Sanctuary, Quezon Avenue. It was attended by different students from different schools; UP, PUP, UST, FEU, CEU, UE, Miriam College, Fatima, New Era University, etc. There were also participants from my university, TUA. I’m not that sure but I think the students present there were mostly high school students. The event was also held in coordination with CCAC’s Anniversary.

I actually went there to support my fave, Reneé Dominique Pionso. I have no idea with everything because it was my first time to attend something like that. That’s why I was surprised when I knew that there were peeps present there who goes with the same university as I do. I got my free ticket from Reneé herself on Twitter. I was supposed to go there with a good friend of mine and my reading buddy Ellaine but something unexpectedly happened so I just went there with my roomie, Michelle.

There were lots of booths outside. We never had the chance to try any of the booths because I was so eager to go inside to see Reneé. There were photobooths too on both east and west wings. Didn’t actually utilized our photobooth stubs because again, I’m so hyped to meet Reneé.

The event started at around 6:30 or 7:00 in the evening I guess? I can’t remember it vividly. For the opening, the pastor gave a quick message of thanksgiving. After that, an icebreaker/ game was conducted. It was a Bring Me game and it was so fun! I actually missed one thing there. The hosts asked us to bring them a girl with the longest hair and I was so shy to stand and run to the stage. My hair is actually 5 inches longer than the winner though. Talk about sayang. Then, the moment I was waiting for … Reneé’s performance!

Reneé first sang Happy by Pharrell Williams and she killed it! She sang it without playing her instruments, just mere singing and dancing? That was the coolest version of Happy I’ve ever heard. I actually swayed while she’s singing it. The next song she sang was Royals by Lorde. She sang it with the accompaniment of her guitar Savannah (if I am not mistaken). And lastly, her favorite Beatles song, I Will with the accompaniment of her newest and first signatured ukubaby, Reneé (she named it like hers since it has her name engraved on it) It was rad though! The whole time she’s singing … it was actually just like listening on her Youtube channel. Except that she’s actually real like gawd she’s not fake, she’s really human. Reneé definitely has what it takes of a real performer. Can sing, can dance and can play different musical instruments. Goodness! Star Magic is so lucky to have her.

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December 09, 2014| 17 Notes